Sunday, April 17, 2016

REI


Nick

The REI in Denver is particularly crowded today, it being the middle of the day on a Saturday at the cusp of real spring. Parking was difficult to find, and the store's landscape is dotted with people browsing through climbing gear and hiking gear and a particularly ambitious couple who are here today examining kayaks.

Nick, for his part, is here mostly because of Thane. When Thane Owens came to Denver, Nick made an effort to show his friend what there was to see outside the city: not the city itself, note. It left him nostalgic in a way that maybe he should have anticipated ahead of time, but regardless, here he is now looking through harnesses and grapples and other climbing gear.

He looks out of place in a place like this, and he perhaps feels out of place too. In a room that is humming with conversation and plans made and casual transaction, he is a hushed calm, standing there with his head slightly tilted as he runs his fingertips over different items.

That's where she'll find him, turning a harness over in his hands, a beam of sunlight filtering through one of the large store windows catching in the matte black of his hair and the bright green of his jacket.

Serafíne

Are there shopping carts in REI Denver?

There must be. There are shopping carts everywhere. There are shopping carts in fucking Macy's, and there would be shopping carts in Nordstrom if the sort of people who like shopping carts would be able to fill them in Nordstrom. But: no. They have to head to Nordstrom Rack to pilot their carts around clearance racks full of mid-level designer brands that richer folks have picked over and discarded.

Ahem.

Here is a shopping cart with one squeaky wheel piloted by a rather striking creature who bends the curve of the universe with her mere existance.

That squeaky wheel heralds her arrival a half-second before she turns the corner. The first impression: the enormous sunglasses, the golden curls. She takes in Nick. She takes in the climbing harness he's fingering. And she says:

"Adventure bound?"

Nick

The squeaky wheel catches Nick's attention before Sera herself does. Miraculously, since Sera herself is quite a presence, the way she feels like the long nights of exhilaration and burning need that were part of Nick's life as a teenager. The Cultist is cutting a path through the crowd, which parts for her if only because maybe they're wondering where and why she got a shopping cart to bring in here.

Still, the important thing is that they part, and Nick has half-turned his head in her direction even before he senses her coming, and once the familiar tang of resonance hits him he does indeed face her in full.

He glances down at the harness in his hands. "Not an adventure in particular. I'm just planning to try to go climbing more often."

His hands lower, and the harness along with it. "I have no idea what I'm looking for, to be honest. When I used to go climbing before, I always went with my friend and borrowed his gear. What adventures are you planning?"

Because Sera is planning some, of this he has no doubt.

Serafíne

There's nothing in the shopping cart and what the hell, once she has made the turn she has also decided to abandon it so abandon it she does. Straightens from her somewhat languid slouch and steps around it and what is Sera wearing at REI? A remarkably (perhaps not-so-remarkably) short red cocktail dress beneath a slashed up leather jacket and fishnets that hug the flesh of her thighs, frame her long legs with diamond-shaped-shadows, and heels that add an extra five-or-so inches to her 5'5" frame. Ambles down the aisle head canted, sunglasses on the gear on display like she's considering it, piece by piece by piece.

"I don't plan my fucking adventures. Takes all the goddamned fun out of it."

Her mouth curves, her chin rises. Equal parts sharp and wry.

"You planning on summitting mountains or just... getting your hands on some rock?"

Nick

"Well, some level of preparation helps keep you from wiping your ass with a handful of leaves or stuck in the hospital with severe dehydration," Nick says, and a look cuts toward her then, his smile also a wry thing.

He returns that particular harness to its hook, and if there is any amusement at Sera's red cocktail dress and slashed leather jacket, he keeps it to himself for now. The Cultist is drawing a look or two, but she's probably used to that.

"I don't think I'm ready to summit mountains or anything like that. I'd mostly just like to get out and do it more. I figure, I'm in Denver and this is the place for it."

Serafíne

Sera gives a neat little shrug, expressive and dismissive all at once: of the perils of poor-planning. I mean hell, she doesn't go that far out, and anyway: magick, right? She can always find her way back home.

And she doesn't look like she belongs here. Those heels and that dress, that jacket. The bristle of hardware in her elfin ears: a half-dozen small hoops and at least two larger spikes. The impression of her tattoos: which are black and white, the lot of them. The suggestion of script when she reaches for the harness he's putting away. Turns over the package, no real hint on what he can see of her sharp features beneath the dark glasses as to what or how much she knows about that shit.. Or why she's here. Or anything.

"We could go bouldering. Don't need any of that gear. Maybe some decent gloves and rock climbing shoes. Best way to learn."

Nick

There is no real hint as to how much Sera knows about that shit, as she turns over the harness in her hands. Maybe that makes Nick a little wary of what she says next, though there's also this: he trusts in Adepts to be Adepts, to be good at a lot of things and to always keep people guessing. These are the sorts of powerful magi he has always encountered, up until now, even the most human of them.

"I'd like that," he says, when she suggests bouldering. And he has straightened, and he is looking down at her, and he is a creature far from his mythic landscape just at this moment with his dark curls and somber features.

"Want to help me find a pair of good shoes and gloves, then?" Because: well, it'll give him a better idea of just how much exactly she knows before he goes climbing boulders with her. Given the exactly zero number of times he's seen her sober, perhaps he's wise to consider this.

Then again, this is indeed the best way to learn, and he uses magick as much as she does, though not with her skill. Can't they always find their way back home?

Thursday, April 14, 2016

sysadmin


Serafíne

The bright washing sun competes with scudding clouds for dominance in the April sky and you'd never guess from the raucous game of ultimate frisbee on one of the big grassy swaths of greening lawn that there's a winter storm watch currently looming over Denver and its environs, that spring ski enthusiasts will have another foot or so of fresh snowfall if they go high enough into the mountains.

Right now: shorts and t-shirts and a frisbee that looks like a pink-frosted donut with a bite taken out. Fringe and beads and bare feet and painted toes and gladiator sandals and the musky scent of marijuana in the air and it's too early (she just woke up an hour or so ago and she's still nursing a particularly intense acid hangover) for a certain Cultist to join her friends chasing around the donut-frisbee, but hey, she can watch. Or pretend to watch? Who fucking knows, her glasses are both ridiculously dark and remarkably large and she could very well be napping behind them.

There's a big bottle of orange juice parked in the cool grass beside her. It is early evening. The sun is only just starting to fall.

Grace

Ahh, Denver. It'll be warm today, sure. Then, the weekend brings a high temp in the 30s and more snow. This is Spring, for you. It can never make up its mind.

Grace has dressed herself in jeans, sneakers, a t-shirt, and her bite-proof grey jacket today, although the jacket is unzipped to let the air in -- so one can see the giraffe wearing ten neckties on her tee, with the text "Trust me, I'm super professional".

There is, perhaps, more of a spring to her step than there has been, of late. Winter's melting, for now. Water's flowing in rivers. Things are breaking free, and soon Summer will make that a little more permanent. It's a good day. One that has Grace walking the trails here where monsters tread, with her attentions place firmly into the trees and sky, and not, apparently at her surroundings. Monsters should be afraid of her, not the other way around.

[Awareness?]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (5, 5, 7, 8, 10) ( success x 3 )

Nicholas

It's become a habit, walking in the park after work while he tries to process and decompress from the day. Nick finds his home to be a pleasant place, somewhere he looks forward to going to at the end of the day, but settling into his office or having dinner isn't a substitute for taking a few moments of silence where he doesn't have to listen to anybody else or try to project this air of detached competence or quiet empathy.

There aren't any winter storm clouds looming on the horizon, just the soft wash of sunlight that speaks to approaching summer. That, and the smell of marijuana that usually lingers around places like this, in Denver. He still isn't fully accustomed to walking out in public and seeking people smoke; and it doesn't bother him - it just is, and does.

The sailing frisbee catches his eye as he makes his way down the path. No shorts and T-shirts for him, just light gray pants and a pale pink shirt, the color of a first blush or of a drop of blood in a puddle, slight intimations of color. His hair was cut recently, which is to say that it's no longer as wild and overgrown as it had threatened to become last month. As is the style at present, the back and sides are shorn more tightly than the top, which spills out in front of him.

He watches people throw the frisbee back and forth as he walks, and he would have nearly passed them by had a familiar face not caught his attention next. Sera is behind a pair of sunglasses, but he makes note of her nonetheless and his trajectory changes. He lifts a hand as he approaches.

Serafíne

Well: see? Her eyes must be open behind the dark glasses, because the creature lounging on the plaid picnic blanket lifts a hand to return Nicholas' wave. There is a hint of a smirk in the curve of her mouth, or maybe that is simply a grimace. Some little protest against the movement required.

She is as she always is: or at least as she always seems. Long and lean and lovely. Or: the intimation if not the fact of length; the suggestion of hunger, of desire, of want in both the concave curve of her bare stomach; and - well. Not lovely. Arresting perhaps, in that way that Grace, and even some of the sleepers around them, must certainly feel. What else can Grace sense? That sun-drenched, soaring resonance that that eminates from old bronze ring that Sera always wears on her right index finger. Nicholas, of course. And no suggestion of monsters.

Other than that wave, Sera doesn't much move or acknowledge Nicholas' approach until he is within actual hailing distance. Then she turns her head - gingerly, gingerly. This is the day-after. Every part of her aches. Every part of her welcomes the ache. The spread of her neat little mouth beneath her glasses: a wide flat smirk and Nicholas mirrored in the convex surface of her dark glasses.

"You look like you're about to sell someone some goddamned insurance."

So says the creature resplendent in British-flag bikini top beneath a faded black hoodie over denim cut-offs and torn fishnets. She has, at some point, taken off her battered combat boots and her almost-bare feet rest in the grass.

Grace

Mmm. Sera. That gut-wrenching feeling has her attention now, drawing her sight, making her change course. The trees, no longer the source of her fascination, don't honestly care.

Sera might.

"Sera!" she says, strolling up, sitting down next to her on the grass. There is also a wave to Nick somewhere in there.

"Do insurance salesmen wear pink shirts?" she says, honestly curious.

"I've been meaning to talk to you," she adds, quieter.

Nicholas

Nicholas has a talent for mirroring other peoples' expressions, for picking up on their moods and reflecting them back and sometimes twisting them just so. He makes use of it in his job: it's how children learn to identify what they're feeling, having an adult frown when they are saying something sad or smile back when they are happy. It's equally important for adults.

So: he sees Sera, and there is this quick cut of his mouth, this way in which the corner snicks upward as though hooked. "That's because I am. Have you heard about our new life insurance policy?" A thought, a beat. "...I might actually consider that if I were terrible. I'd make a fortune."

He has stopped in front of her, though always always with an eye on the frisbee as it cuts the air. Nick got a black eye from a frisbee once, years ago.

Grace catches his attention next when she comes up on the two of them, and almost without thinking he shifts his stance to allow her space into the conversation and also to face her, or at least pull her into his line of sight. His brow furrows at what she says. "To me?"

Serafíne

Oh, here's Grace. Asking a very honest question about a very wry quip tossed off by a very hungover Cultist and again that sensation of arrest, of cessation as she shifts the direction of her dark, reflective glasses from Nicholas to Grace. A: very slow lift of one of her flat blond brows, expressive enough that it rises above the curving frame of the glasses. And lingers, because she's not really quite sure how to take Grace's question about insurance salesmen. For example: is it the sort of question that requires an answer?

Something in her decides that it is not the sort of question that requires an answer. Or: that she is too something-something-something after last-night and this-morning and hell, the last few weeks, the last few months, the last few years to have to answer if it does.

Her attention cuts back to Nicholas. Something about the cant of her head suggests that she catches the hint of that smirk carved back to her. And he cannot see her eyes but he can still somehow almost feel that flick of her attention: minute and precise and animal: to his mouth, then back to his eyes. The gleam of the dying sun in her glasses, his shadow long over the blanket, the grass. Might make another quip in that moment, but no. Sera mirrors Nicholas' question, though she does so wordlessly. Inquiry stitched into the lift of her chin.

Grace

"Well, not... I mean, sure I could talk to you, but I don't have anything specific in mind," she says, to Nick, as though that question caught her off guard. It can be rather hard to tell who Grace is talking to, considering she so rarely makes eye contact.

"Sera. I had a run-in with a sysadmin. I got traced, but I'm not sure how bad. I'm no good at looking back in time to figure out what happened, you know? But you..."

Are totally unaware of what a sysadmin is, or why one would trace her... Right. Grace frowns, tries to figure out a better way to say this. "I felt something. Subtle. A hint of resonance."

Nicholas

Nick shifts his weight to his other foot as he glances between the two women. He, too, is rather unaware in any specific sense of what a sysadmin is, other than what conclusions he can draw from the words themselves, and so: he listens.

Serafíne

And here is Sera who can very well unhinge time. Pull it apart. Reel it backwards. Create within it currents as slow as molasses or as rippling-fast as some ever-accelerating black and white montage of a movie-bender and who does not know what a sysadmin is and who, on some deep and really rather important level, does not even believe in them.

When her iPhone works, it works by magick.

Sometimes, some nights, it does not seem to want to work at all.

Her attention hangs on Grace. She has been leaning back on her elbows, but now - a ripple of her flexible frame - sits closer-to-upright. Ow. Her head hurts.

"Like - " here a furrowed V of thought appears between the enormous discs of her glasses. " - yesterday? Someone was spying on you?"

Grace

"No. It was a while ago. Month or so. When I was trying to figure out what happened to Alex," she explains, hopefully that's enough. Not going to go into specifics here in the park, is she.

She seems strangely okay with this -- accepting of the fact. What's done is done, and all. But what was done?

"But yeah. Possibly spying on me. I fought it off, but..." she trails off, waves an arm in the air.

Nicholas

Nick looks between the two of them again, his eyebrows cutting a delicate arch as he listens to the talk of spying and figuring out what happened to Alex. It occurs to him that he has not yet met the man.

"Should I give the two of you some time?"

Grace

"Why?" she asks Nick. "I don't mind you knowing. You're as welcome here as cupcakes, man. Stay. If you want."

Kiara

Washington Park was a sort of nexus for the athletically inclined in Denver, as it happened. There were no small number of them tonight as the sun began to dwindle and sink into the horizon, cutting pathways around the lake and appearing only to weave a steady track over inclines and down again; vanishing into the distance.

Joggers. There was something so mundane and expected to them.

Amidst a world of chaos and uncertainty, lying on the grass surrounded by Frisbees and dogs being walked and the occasional carrying cry of laughter or the smack of a ball hitting the backside of a distant basketball court - there was an easy comfort in the banality.

Breaking away from behind a young couple pushing a stroller down by the glinting lakeside is a familiar figure; tall and lean with long dark hair sailing out behind her. Another runner by any other name but also - a Witch. The pagan known to some here as anything but a nameless addition to the Sleepers. She's slowing to a clipped walk, the Verbena; breathing hard and holding her hands against her side; her pace directing her toward a bench to warm down her muscles.

She's a surge of the Springtime Kiara, as she sets her leg up and stretches it out; a sweatshirt laced around a narrow waist; navy workout gear encasing her form. If she notes the presence of the others up on a shallow rise of grass, she's yet to make it clear.

Though the presence of earbuds and a small MP3 taped to her arm would suggest she's unaware - yet. Here then, was one half of their rescue team that had extricated Alexander from the Union. Nicholas alone perhaps knew the current condition of the other half - for her part, physically at least, the brunette seemed to be coping with the aftermath reasonably well.

Serafíne

There is rhythm behind them. The slap of plastic against strangers' palms. Bare feet against that solid spring grass, the cold soil beneath, warming yeah but still somehow in the grip of winter. The whir of the discs through the air: the twin miracles of propulsion and flight. Aerodynamics or what the fuck ever.

By now Sera is sitting forward, legs crossed beneath her, the picnic blanket rucked up beneathtthem from the movement. Golden curls a messy tangle in the failing light. She takes off her sunglasses here and gives Nicholas a brief, apologetic flash of a glance. Neat little compression of her mouth. Her eyes are a little bit bloodshot and her pupils are still rather-too-large. This hint of bruising beneath them: dark circles, something. That ache more evident without the shield of the glasses, but what the fuck does one expect? She's hung-over.

Breathes out here, Sera. Tried to order her thoughts for Grace and then: a flicker of something else. "You asked to talk to me," Sera reminds Grace, though there is something gentle in her tone. The bravado of her greeting to Nick earlier is long-since drained away. " - remember? Not him. So, you haven't made him feel quite as welcome as cupcakes, Grace. You know? Nick may not want to be a spectator to our conversation. He might even need to get home to start dinner."

Brief curve of her mouth here: the lilt of her chin, this neat, apologetic little gesture toward Nicholas before her attention cuts back to and rests wholly on Grace.

"Have you felt the resonance since then?"

Kiara

[Oh yeah, we should do this for our next post. Mage-dar.]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (2, 6, 7, 7, 9, 10) ( success x 5 )

Grace

"Oh," Grace says. It honestly hadn't occurred to her that she might be edging someone out. "I'm sorry. I'll just..."

She takes a breath. Sera asks her something. "No."

But, she's distracted, giving that no to Nick's face, as she radiates confusion with hers. This is one of those times, right? When the rules of social interaction seem to have been missed. It makes her uncomfortable. Makes her want to...

"I should go. You think about it, okay, Sera?" she stands up, gets the attention toward the trees again. Trees are easier to understand.

Nicholas

It doesn't take an especially perceptive person to note the confusion, as boldly as it has been sketched across Grace's features. Nick reaches out toward her as she stands up, motions for her elbow and ends up not grabbing hold just letting his fingertips rest there on the back of her arm. It's meant to catch her attention; little more. "Don't leave, Grace. I just stopped to say hello to Sera. You two should talk."

Kiara

It's a slow progression up the hill when she does notice the others gathered.

The earphones curled around her neck; her face flushed with recent exertion. Kiara Woolfe approaches feeling like the whirl of energy she is, at her core. Thriving, pulsing with life and the promise of vitality and renewal. She smells like sunshine and sweat, the Verbena and somehow; the sheen of it; the essence of that - absolutely feels at home on her.

She makes a slight outward arc to avoid collision with the game at play nearby and approaches from behind a tree; her fingers chasing over the bark.

"Hey."

A breathless greeting that seems to encapsulate them all from the dark eyed female; her mouth bent into a small match for it. The corner curled upward. She settles back against the tree and resumes stretching.

Serafíne

Sera's quiet, as Nick stops Grace. Doesn't pull her dark eyes with the too-large pupils from Grace except briefly, to greet Kiara with a wordless touch of her gaze as the Verbena approaches. A flicker back, and the Cultist slides her dark glasses back over her eyes and rises.

"C'mon Grace, we'll go talk." Except for the fishnets, her feet are bare. Damp grass clings to her skin. Tomorrow, they say, it will snow. Tonight, the Cultist starts to walk, barefoot in the cool spring grass, ambling pass the ultimate frisbee game in the warm spring park. She leaves behind: everything. The orange juice and the plaid blanket and her favorite Doc Martens and her pack of unopened kreteks and her favorite lighter lost somewhere on the blanket, everything.

Maybe she plans to return.

Maybe she assumes: effortlessly, naturally, that someone will always be trailing behind her to clean that shit up.

Serafíne

(I am really sorry but as usual it is my bed time and I have to go to bed. Sera will go off with Grace and talk. Noel: IM me sometime and we can continue the scene. Andrew and Jacqui: I want a real scene sometime soon!)

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Mostly, me. [Retro]


Alexander

Now Alexander turns to the filter machine, although whether it’s because the coffee is ready, because it’s something to do, or some small way to break eye contact with Grace Is unclear. Maybe it’s all of the above. “Why did they come here? To get away from the war, or to bring it here? What did…” There’s the sound of coffee being poured, as that sentence fades to nothing. “How is Kalen?” Three small words, but a question with so many potential answers.

There’s a thunk and a hiss as the jug slides back onto its hotplate. “Well bad timing comes together just as often as we randomly bump into each other. But that doesn’t sound much like Elijah. I didn’t know him all that well, but he never seemed like the type to lead an army into battle. What happened to him?”

There’s more to say, but there’s something holding him back from giving voice to the words. “Whiskey?” Alex holds up a bottle, checking what he should pour into Grace’s coffee.

Grace

"I wish I knew what they were up to here, to be honest. Probably thinking that since Denver is a strategic target, somebody should be here to report back to the hivemind what goes on? Maybe they're here to take over the Chantry and turn this place into a pompous elitist Hermetic's idea of a paradise?"

She shifts in her chair, scratches her nose, because even she knows the look of utter disgust on her face isn't pretty. She really doesn't want to tell Alex what at least one of their ilk has said about his.

"One thing though, the ones who are here don't seem to be the type to run away from a war."

"Kalen is..." Not sleeping. Manic and beside himself. Kind of an exaggerated normal, if you know Kalen. "Well. He could be in a better mental state, but all of us could. He was very worried about you. I'm sure you knew that already," she says, huffs out a humorless laugh.

Alex asks about Elijah, and Grace responds tersely. What happened? "He joined the Order of Hermes." And apparently, that's all she needs to explain herself. "I'm being... too hard on him, I guess. He'd just found out about you, and freaked out. I lack any patience these days, though. Whiskey is a go. Very much some of that."

Alexander

[Per+Emp?]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (2, 3, 5, 5, 7, 10) ( success x 2 )

Grace

[Grace isn't usually one to speak of the Order of Hermes in such a directly insulting manner, seeing as how she practically lives with a Hermetic who is decidedly not a pompous elitist. This might lead one to come to the conclusion that she has found at least one new person in Denver clinging to the worst stereotypes of Hermetic arrogance, and yes -- is quite disgusted by what she found.]

Alexander

“Hopefully they’re not of the same frame of mind as the guys who thought firing up a war between the vampires and the Union without telling us was a good idea.” There’s a weary sigh as Alex turns back to the mugs. He had only been intending to add the whiskey to Grace’s coffee, but now he adds a slug to both mugs. This was starting to look like one of those conversations. “Please say that there’s nobody else looking to poke sharp sticks either of those particular ant nests.”

That look of Grace’s is noticed and studied, but it’s obvious that the bad taste doesn’t originate from him. (Although give it a few minutes and it might originate from the coffee.) “That’s a look. What aren’t you telling me?”

The two cups are held with one hand, a finger looped through both handles, and the bottle of whiskey picked up and carried over to the bed with the other. The bottle is dropped onto the bed, freeing up a hand to pass one cup to Grace before Alex sits on the edge of the mattress.

“Yeah, I can’t imagine Kalen took it at all well. He knows that I’m out?” It’s almost a rhetorical question, but there are reasons behind it. “Kiara told me that Ginger is dead, I wasn’t sure how well the news had been passed around. If you see him before I do, tell him I’m fine.” Fine: the universal term for not good, but nothing I want to deal with right this second.

His eyebrows rise in surprise when he finds out about Elijah’s joining of the Order, the rest of his expression hidden behind the cup that he’s in the middle of taking a drink from. “I really should spend more time with the guy. Well, with everyone, really. I guess I’ve been a bit distant. I guess it’s understandable that he’d freak out if he hadn’t heard anything, though. Just… wow. William. That’ll take some getting used to.”

“I doubt the universe will care enough to provide, but hopefully things will stay quiet for long enough for you to find your patience again.”

Grace

"Like I said. I really wish I knew what all these new people in Denver were here to do," Grace says, reaches a hand out for the coffee.

He asks what that look was about, and she sighs. Grins a sardonic smile. "Like I said, I've been having fights with people. One of the new people in town is a Hermetic who's got a tree trunk shoved up her ass, and is very very proud of herself for being so proud. It doesn't bode well."

She smells the coffee. Smells the whiskey in it, leans her head back against the chair. Alex is 'fine'. He certainly seems to be doing well enough to get coffee and have a conversation, which is about eighty percent of normal human interaction. Fine is an okay place to be right now.

"Enough about me and my personal communication problems, Alex. Do you have any idea of what you'd like to do next? It's okay if you don't. I wouldn't blame you."

Alexander

“You’re not exactly selling the new neighbours. Although that does sound like the Order that Alyssa warned me about.” Alex shrugs, taking another sip of his coffee. It doesn’t bode well, but he’ll wait and make his own judgement if and when he encounters anyone who looks like they’re sitting on something uncomfortable.

He shifts up the bed, enough so that he can swing his legs up and rest back against the headrest. His fingers interlace around the cup, holding it safely on his lap. “I’m not sure.” Alex rests his head back against the wall, the ceiling with its vague nicotine stains suddenly seems to be an interesting place to look. “I think I want my life back. Assuming…” Assuming a lot, but nothing that gets immediately voiced. “Assuming that I can. I know some things need to change, though.”

Serafíne

That's when the front door of the motel room opens. Oh hey. Here's Sera.

She has a key and well, Dan has the key. They aren't sneaking up but the key and the lock and the conversation and her very, very distinctive resonance that is as soaked into the walls of this room as it is into her skin. The wards are her own, after all. So the place - at least inside - feels like her even in her absence. More: between than anything else. Liminal, that is it: some refusal of definition, as if one could choose simply to let go of labels and exist in a state of possible/flux.

"What do you think needs to change?" A flash of her dark eyes over Alex. She is: remarkably sober for a Sera.

Grace

Sera walks in. It's an event that has Grace glancing at the door, giving a salute to those entering with her coffee cup. Someone else being here is a good thing.

"He's changed," she says, smiles a bit of a genuine smile at Alex, even as he peruses the ceiling, looking for omens in the splotches of brown. "You've melted, man. Flowed downhill, too from the feel of it. I'm sure you're up to the task of changing things. That part's easy."

The booze has made her coffee a bit cooler, invites her to drink it, which she does. Chemical happiness. A poor substitute for the real thing. Alex, though, with his wanting his life back, that's something to be honestly happy about, isn't it?

Alexander

The door wasn’t even locked, unless Grace had flicked it off the latch while he had been changing. Alex turns to look at the door as it opens, just starting to free his hands from each other to push up from the bed and… And settles back again, when he sees that it’s Sera (and Dan?) coming in. The urge to get up fades as soon as it had arrived, although the thump of his heart in his chest from the surprise arrival will take a little longer to settle. There’s something of his own, changed, resonance hanging over the room in addition to Sera’s, and maybe something of Jim’s. Some remnant of recent Work lingering.

What do you think needs to change?

“Mostly, me.” Grace says that he’s changed, and he nods, shrugs, meeting her eyes as he does. “I guess I figured some stuff out. Like how pushing everyone away isn’t good for me.” He nudges the bottle of whiskey with a foot, pushing it towards the side of the bed closest to the door.

Serafíne

Here is Sera, and Dan of course, sliding in behind her, a solid, tattooed hand on the creature's narrow should. That impression one has of her: the sudden, dirty glamour of her presence. Golden curls and a battered leather jacket. Sunglasses even (especially) in the cheap no-tell motel room where she once spent three days hiding out from: everyone. Everywhere, ashes in the back of her throat.

This glance for Grace, as she speaks. The dark glasses, the dark eyes. The sense of: attention, of awareness, of consideration. Neat little kink of a smile responsive to Grace's own. Then Alex.

"Not an easy thing to learn," Sera, quiet. The supple, blooming grace of her smile beneath the gleam of the dark glasses. "I'm glad we have you back so you can figure it out, though."

--

Does she notice: his jumpiness? His awareness. She must. She sees so much. Feels so much. Has been through: so much that she must recognize that moment of startlement, movement, surge. Perhaps feels some resonant answer to it, somewhere in her body. Somewhere beneath her ribs, in her viscera. Somewhere.

"We brought you some clothes and shit. Some cash. A new phone." Dan hefts a reuseable shopping bag and sets it down on the bed nearest Alexander. He inserts: "Have a few other errands to run but we can come back later, if you want company. Or not, if you don't."

They'll hang around for another few minutes, but soon enough Dan reminds Sera that it is time to go.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

hipsters @coolbar 2nite only!


Serafíne

Hole in the wall of holes in the wall. The entrance is from the middle of a long alley behind some shallow galleries and the space is strange and there's a red door and a purple light above it that is intuitively menacing but a strange scroll-worked sign above that says simply: cool bar. Then something like a bank big bank vault door and a long stairway down-down-down and: oh hello.


Bar and stage as likely to host impromptu walking productions of MacBeth written back into street slang as it is to have a band, but tonight there's a band. Not much notice. Folks who got the invitation late this afternoon only saw: pop-up show, @coolbar with a link to the location and a minute later come here are new stuff thanks, auto-correct.


Pen

Here is Pen - come through the ominous purple haze, come through the big bank vault door and the long stairway, the echoing stairway, the stairway which echoes (it does echo, echoes and contains, a tunnel) like some kind of nautilus, and: oh hello.

Here is Pen, who came because she wanted to hear the band and see the band members, in an artist's smock doubling as a tunic. The effect is airy and winsome John Williams Waterhouse, some Spring-witch, cobalt blue embroidery at the edges of the collar which is a split that goes down to her sternum the laces left loose like that, and her hips are banded by a belt of braided leather.

Here is Pen - but where is Dan; where is Sera? Pen sweeps the place with a glance, aspiring (the soldier) to alertness, and if she sees either of them: she beelines. Or she joins the small crowd at the bar, ordering a ginger rye from the bartender.

Serafíne

Bright and warm and windy the next morning. The snow mounded up so high yesterday now has a bright, granular crust and everything, everywhere is a paean to gravity, a lesson in watersheds. Easy to get out and back on the road home, even at the immoderately early hour of ten-or-so a.m. And she's curled up in the passenger's seat, knees drawn up, forehead against the glass, sunglasses yes, dark and huge, against the glare. He doesn't imagine she's slept. Doesn't imagine she's slept much, anyway. He knows how much acid she took two days ago. How long it takes to come down.

Well, hey! Dan and Dee and Rick are setting-up on the small stage and there's something easy and companionable about it all, some return-to-rhythm, something necessary and organic that passes between them as they go about the work in an unfamiliar space. Been forever since they 'played-out' after all. Sera is sitting on the stage while the others work. She wanted to wear her Easter dress again but it seemed that the skirt would be an impediment to the on-off she tends to do with her guitar, so she is back to one of her standards: a pair of tiny denim cut-offs and fishnets and filmy, lacy black bra beneath a ripped, worn, studded, shorn leather jacket.

Her legs are swinging, swinging, swinging and she sits while her friends work, and she has a beer and a shot and she's talking very companionably with an attractive young rather-earnest looking black guy sporting a pair of hipster glasses, worn jeans, and a distressed t-shirt which features a line drawing of an enormous sheep eating a tiny laser-eyed monster.

Sera waves and beams when she sees Pen making-a-beeline. Her hair is worn differently than it often is, and when she turns to say something to Tre about who-Pen-is it becomes obvious why: she is wearing a crown.

"Hey!" That smile. "You came!"

Silas

Silas' pants are too loose for a true hipster, but other than that? There is the stubble, the hair swept just so, the button down shirt (with sleeves rolled up to approximately the elbow, displaying tattoos on his arms) tucked into denim that moves well with him rather than constricting his movements, the bow tie that coordinates, contrasts, something. It doesn't match, no, where would be the fun in that?

He drinks his whiskey neat, at least tonight, and of course he's here for the band. Why else could he be? But there are things that mark him out as different [as primal, as Other], and there are things that Echo from him, literal representations of the Ars Vitae with which he is so familiar. His skin is warm to the touch on the occasion it's brushed - a sunlit glade full of riotous growth. There is no jewellery but for one thin gold band on his right ring finger, and a paler bit of skin of a similar width on the middle finger next to it.

Sitting with drink in hand, his back is to the bar; his eyes on the assembled are a vivid blue, clear and vibrant, and observant. He sees Pen enter, sees so much.

Serafíne

Awareness!

Dice: 7 d10 TN5 (5, 6, 6, 7, 7, 7, 10) ( success x 8 ) [Doubling Tens]

Silas

Same!

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (3, 6, 7, 8, 10) ( success x 4 )

Serafíne

Then, well. This moment when she lifts her chin and looks and looks and oh: everything in that moment is sharp, heightened, intimate, surreal. "Check that guy out." So she says to Pen, a lift of her chin toward Silas. "He feels like someone you'd know."

Pen

[?]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (1, 1, 4, 8, 9) ( success x 2 )

Pen

Sera beams and it is Sera and it is that smile and Pen smiles back: a flash of a thing, burnished like a piece of silver, see, tarnished until suddenly: a rill of brightness, catching the day, and of course her entire expression is lit up by it and by Sera and by the prospect of music made by somebody fashioned and crafted by someones that she knows here on this particular night with snow a rim outside a créme brulee shell to be cracked get to the sweet within. "Of course!" - that rill of brightness in her voice, too: steadiness. "I feel as if I have been longing to hear you play, that it is exactly what I want to feel in my collar and my rib cage - Sera, I am very excited," and the flash of a smile and its left-over remnant pleasure becomes this curl of a grin. "Hello," to Tre. "I'm Pen."

And she might have said more, but there by the stage is Serafíne, observant, lifting her chin and Pen does check that guy out, turning so her back is to the stage and she can give that guy an assessing look (a weapon must be ready, always; she tries to be always ready).

"I don't, though. He seems as if he should have antlers, doesn't he?"

And if Silas meets Pen's eyes, she lofts her eyebrows and cants her head.

Pen

ooc: Er, make that the fancier and more Pen-like: "He seems as if he should wear a crown of antlers upon his brow, doesn't he?"

Grace

[Awareness!]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (5, 6, 6, 7, 8) ( success x 4 )

Grace

There's an invitation. Grace responds to that invitation, not so much because she enjoys going to bars for music, but because of the sender. Sera could make just about anything worth it.

The swirl of different in this place doesn't surprise much. She still blinks as she steps in the door, this be-winged thing, at everyone else's oddness. She wears her coat-of-many-colors -- red, with strips of LED lights sewn in. If it looks a little worn, perhaps it's just because she wears it everywhere in winter.

A bee-line, she travels, straight to Pen, head down, like she is trying to forget the rest of the crowd is here.

Silas

Eyes are met, yes, and a brow raised in return; questioning, perhaps, from the bit of the bar closest the stage. Silas is not terribly far from where Sera and Pen met, and so after acknowledging their presence (and feeling their Presence) he takes up his drink, signals the bartender for two drinks of the women's choice to be added to his tab, and makes his way to where they stand. Why not? There is music, and there is quarry here, even if he chooses not to hunt, and there are people of interest.

Silas is brazen, he is bald, and when he moves towards where Pen assesses and Sera prepares his gait is sure, and nigh predatory. It is not rushed but measured just right to give Sera chance to give answer before he's close enough to hail them.

"Hello," he says and his deep voice is familiar to Grace. There's a slight accent there, as the Other carries itself from impression to reality; it's English, maybe, if you listen to it sideways, but the kind of upper class English that one hears in places that commoners aren't often about. "I feel that you two may be people I should know. I'm called Silas."

Grace

Silas is Arianna's friend. So is Pen. It remains to be seen if Grace will be able to associate with either of them once it comes out that she'd much rather punch Arianna in the face than give her prejudices credit by being nice.

For now, though...

"You don't know Pen? Really?" Grace makes a 'huh' face. Lets them introduce themselves. "Hey, Pen."

Serafíne

"You know we're loud," Sera-to-Pen, "right?" And there is a moment there of introduction: Tre to Pen and Pen to Tre, perhaps. Sera tells Pen that Tre is, you know, cool, which is code enough for Tre to understand that Pen, like Sera, is magickal. And to Pen's comment about crowns and antlers, all Sera has to add is: "Don't look now, he's coming this way."

With a neat wink. They can be all archaic together.

And: a twirl of Sera's fingers at Grace as she is bee-lining and this glance at Tre that includes a neat little smirk and this particular NPC might well shake hands with Pen and even Silas and also: Grace if she gets here soon enough but he also has a feeling that it is time to take his leave. He's gonna go chat up the bartender/manager and work the crowd and he has enough easy, unselfconscious charm that he can really work a crowd.

"Serafíne. Hey. Everyone calls me Sera."

Nick

Here is Nick, who was likely gently persuaded into coming and ultimately came because he wanted to hear the band play. He is come separate from Pen, though he went back to the house to change before coming out because he couldn't stand to be in his work clothes any longer. He is wearing a collarless chambray shirt and a pair of dark brown khakis and boots: the effect is a simple one, contrasting neatly with Pen.

It will also let him blend in here, which is just as well. Nick has the sort of air about him that could be a buzzkill in a place like this.

Nick gathers his bearings for a moment after he has stepped in the door into the haze and red and purple lights. Pen is easy enough for him to see, and so is Sera, and there is Grace. He lifts a hand to all of them, and he stops at the bar first, because damned if he is going to be at a loud concert without a drink in hand.

Pen

They can all be archaic together, and here come to roost two bird-things (winged quake herald of change dark crow reverent portent) in the cool bar as well. The cool bar really is cool; look how many cool people have come to it (because of Sera - core of gravity; center of the circle). Silas has Pen's attention, as a stranger and a stranger who feels as he does, but when Grace cuts through the crowd she is welcomed with a warm look. She offers the man-who-should-wear-an-antlered-crown her hand. Her wrist is clasped in a metal bracelet; there are rings on every finger, including above the knuckle of her thumb, and she says -

"Silas. From Silvanus, I take it?" with easy good humor, and in the middle of the question this perplexed look for Grace, which winds past Grace to rest on Sera: the question continues. Why should Pen know Silas and not Sera, hmm?

Grace

She waves back at Sera, the twinkle of fingers, a quirk of a lip. But she doesn't understand the weird look Pen gives her. Some people are easier to read than others.

"Hey, Nick too. We're freaking flocking."

Silas

"Yes, actually. My mother is ever interested in the esoteric." Grace is there and she waves her fingers, so Silas gives a nod of his head; it could be a bow but that it isn't at all, and while he may sound like it, look like it, he isn't quite that archaic. Any hand offered is shaken, displaying his tattoo-sleeved right forearm - it is cloaked in symbols of Horned Gods and Hunts, lending still more credence to the thought that perhaps there ought to be horns on his person. As stated, he is warm to the touch in a way that might be considered feverish, were it not so vigorous a sign of life.

"It's a pleasure to meet you both. And to see you again, Grace - I hope all is well."

Serafíne

Grace says that we are freaking flocking and Sera favors the Virtual Adept (sorry: Grace, Sera has not adjusted to the name change.) with a neat liiittle smirk. Grace and her propensity for commenting on the coincidences of mages-coming-together. Well: no coincidence tonight. It's the first time Sera's band has played out in...

...months. Nine or more. She has a shot and a beer and when Siles orders another one of whatever the women are drinking to be put on his tab, hell, she gets another round. Of shots, not beer. Stranahan's Colorado whiskey: goes down a treat. She tosses it back like a pro. Eyes Silas' tattooes when he outstretches his hand to be shaken. Notes the warmth and goes, "Oh, your hands are warm!" And she remembers: others with warm hands. The passing wonder of it.

"I hope you brought your earplugs," Sera says this mostly to Grace, in a way that is teasing-serious, and reaches out to ruffle Grace's hair. Whom Dan pauses in his work doling out cords and setting up drums and amps and whatnot to greet with a grin framed by his blond beard.

Nick

When Nick appears behind all of them, it's without emitting a sound; a more forceful presence than his would be likely to startle other people. Lucky he's not like that.

"Hello everyone," he says, and when he finally settles on a place to enter the little circle of Willworkers here it's next to Pen. He has a whiskey and soda in hand. Dan, where he is setting up amps and doling out cards, gets a wave.

Nicholas, curly-headed and solemn, offers a moment's quiet regard for the other man present: he had not arrived in time to catch his name. "Hello. I'm Nick."

Grace

Grace shrugs at Silas. He can hope all is well all he wants. She isn't going to explain why it isn't right now. But she leans into Sera's ruffling fingers, pulls out -- yes -- a pair of earplugs connected to each other by a wire from her coat pocket. Smirks.

"They are loud," she explains. Gives Nick a wave.

There's goodness to this. Coming together, waving at people, the meeting, the parting. Grace, for her part, is simply present. If her eyes go darting to some light fixture or other rather than a person, it's just the way she is.

Silas

"Silas," he says for Nick's benefit, offering a hand as well; there are Manners to this one, and they are deeper and stronger than just a handshake might seem. And Grace's shrug is taken in stride - already he's come to realize that Grace tends towards the terse, at least with him, and that her reactions are not always what he would consider apropos. Or polite. Still, he reserves obvious judgement, and attempts to include her as much as the others, until it seems she'd rather be left alone.

"I've not been in Denver long, though if you are the Nick and Pen of whom I've heard, we have a friend in common." He's not as secretive as his Housemate in some ways - in this way. He doesn't much mind the assembled knowing who he knows.

Pen

Pen's gray as gloaming eyes gleam when Silas blames his name on his mother's love of esoterica, but she does not discuss it (or the fact that she believes likely his mother was inspired by the mien of him, the clear and present godhood in his shadow; what will Margot make of this one?). Only seems friendly enough, inquisitive but questions will keep.

She executes a small double take when Grace actually pulls out earplugs; her eyes gone wide. She measures their proximity to the stage (the scant few inches, since Sera was and perhaps is sitting still on the edge of the stage, her band busy about her), then finds the speakers.

"Should we move if we hope to preserve our eardrums then?"

There is a Nicholas; Pen reaches for and takes his drink because she has yet to order one of her own and she wants to drink something.

Pen is sharp enough to: "Oh, you are Ari's childhood friend. Sera, have you met Ari yet?"

Grace

[Manip + Subt = Ari? Oh no, I have no probs with her.]

Dice: 4 d10 TN6 (1, 2, 3, 7) ( success x 1 )

Grace

Never let it be said that Grace has manners. Perish the thought. It's a rare day she remembers to thank people for gifts, and has a tendency to look at people oddly when they thank her -- because property is a bit distasteful when it comes right down to it. What are manners, except for the customs and rituals of tribes who've never claimed her?

"Well, we can," she says, to Pen. "I'm just not a huge fan of loud music, myself."

She tries not to let it show on her face the distaste in her when Ari's name is brought up. She licks her lip, snakelike, tilts her gaze to the side. Not paying attention anymore.

Nick

[Oh? Perception + Empathy.]

Dice: 8 d10 TN6 (1, 3, 4, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8) ( success x 3 )

Silas

[You think so, do you. How droll. Per+Emp]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (5, 7, 8, 8, 9) ( success x 4 )

Serafíne

"Tre always has extras," Sera assures Pen: of earplugs. If she is intent on preserving her hearing. "Dee too." Because hearing loss is a problem for musicians. Or at least: musicians who are not disciples of life.

They are indeed very close to the stage. Sera is still sitting there, letting her legs swing and swing and swing. She is excited, wired. Perhaps she is on some-small-thing other than alcohol, in addition to alcohol, but the darkness in cool bar is deep enough that there will be no good view of her pupils.

Gives Nick a quick, chasing grin. Shakes her head no to Pen: she has never heard of Ari and she takes no part in the examination of Grace who is trying-not-to-let-things show. That shake jostles a few of the curls pinned up amidst the glories of her crown but the whole of the mass is well-secured.

Then Dan is there with a hand on her shoulder because everything's set up and they need five minutes to go over the set list, don't they? In the past they've always done covers, or covers of their own shit that Sera-and-Dan have sold to other artists, stitched together by Sera's irrepressible and slowly raveling charm. Tonight though -

"We'll be out in a few! So glad you guys came - "

Nick

His drink is commandeered; Nick allows this with hardly a sideways glance. This is the way of things. It frees up his hand to shake Silas's, and there is this glimmer of recognition there as the man says his name that Nick doesn't bother to hide. "Ari's mentioned you," he says.

His hand falls back to his side, and Nicholas is an insightful man and it's not difficult to notice the way in which Grace's gaze slants sidelong, how there is this slight wrinkling of her nose. Nick marks it; for now, he says nothing. His hazel eyes are for Sera, who is swing swing swinging her legs, and there is this crinkle of amusement at the corners of his eyes. "I didn't realize you were in the band, Sera. Thanks for inviting us."

Pen

Nick didn't realize she was in the band; that brings out Pen's dimples, for whatever reason, a mischievous glint.

Then: "I am glad too! Break the bone and chase the echoes down," Pen says, earnest and whole-hearted and here a quick flash of a smile again that winds up not being quick at all; flash bomb, the way it just dazzles (lake-light, shield-light) for a moment but there's the blinding blot after effect. That lingers; in the place of this metaphor, it becomes diffuse. Dan gets a tilt of her chin, a pleased hello acknowledgment; then courtesy: "I am for the bar."

It is an invitation, sure, because there are people now crowding in, and their area is a coveted one; funny how a crowd will eddy, will whorl like a river against a stone-strewn shore.

She hands back to Nicholas his drink; it has been considerably depelted. "It is good to meet you, Silvanus." Pause; "I meant to say Silas," and she sounds perplexed: because she did. (When one is marked, such things often happen. Especially if one is speaking to someone myth-seeped as Penelope.) "In some other venue, I shall want most dearly to ask you questions!"

And she is for the bar, so.

Silas

Silas marks the same shift in expression that Nick does, and he too lets it lie; he is the new addition, after all, and Arianna is more than capable of fighting her own battles when they're worth fighting. And sometimes when they aren't. More interesting is that Pen has labeled him a childhood friend, and that Nick's eyes sparkle recognition at his name. The way he sips his drink, finishing it, is casual, as are his posture and eyes.

"Yes, she and I know each other of old. If you'll pardon me - I promised my roommates I would remind them to be here for the show. Break legs, Sera."

He says this with sincerity, in the way of far older performance arts than this - and with pleasantries traded, he makes his way for the door - where he'll be able to make his call in more favorable conditions.

Serafíne

This is a ridiculously small venue and those invitations went out to maybe one out of five people on Sera's normal invite-people-to-shit contact list (which is of course, managed by Dan-not-Sera) and the other magi may well have five-ten-fifteen minutes or more of conversation before the quartet come out of - er - the back office and the hallway down to the bathrooms with their instruments and plug in to check a few levels and channels and whatnot but they already tried out the space on Monday when the bar was closed and figured (most) of that shit out. Dan and Sera with guitars, Dee with her bass, Rick on the drums. And this is new work and it is collective work, brawny and rhythm-section forward. Great big and (yes) loud as promised though the wave of noise has been modulated for the space, you see. It is also: loud as in, full, driving. The wall of instrumental sound and Sera's and sometimes Sera-and-Dee's or even Sera-and-Dee-and-Dan's voices a melodic cloud above it, floating through a river of noise.

(Er: thank you all for coming! I gotta sleep!)

Grace

Grace huffs at Nick. Didn't realize Sera was in the band? Wait until the first time she does literal magic with that voice of hers. It is something.

Pen departs for the bar, and Silas departs for his roomates. "Want to follow Pen?" she asks Nick. "It's about to get loud right here. Might be better at the bar, eh?

She hefts her weight back and forth, clearly ready to move if he is. Clearly ready to wait with him if he isn't.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Easter eggs.


Serafíne

The text invitation: Easter party / brunch / whatever! Bring yrself and maybe someone else.

That was a mass text. Sure, Sera changed phones and numbers after texting Alexander's phone repeatedly while he was imprisoned by the technocracy but she then proceeded to redownload all of her old contacts and reinstall them and text everyone her new number. Or well: Dan built up the contacts again, patiently, excising only: Ginger and Alexander and any other number he knew had been ditched as a number-of-possible-interest. Haven't been as many mass texts lately but there is what the housemates have taken to calling The Project and then for a certain Cultist and a certain Consor there was also: the other project.

And other reasons, besides.

--

Four or five days ago Denver had a blizzard and the blizzard brought a foot or more of snow and also the god Horus back down to earth. Thursday was bright and warm and everything just started: melting. Okay: there was so much snow that great melting monstrous mounds of it linger in parking lots and pedestrian malls where contractors piled it up with heavy equipment but: the streets and sidewalks are all clear, as is much of the grass. Hummocks of snow linger in the deep shadows of north-facing slopes, on the south side of streets, in the no-longer-recognizing slumps that used to be snowpersons.

There are several used-to-be-snowpersons in the yard at 719 Corona Street.

There are also: plastic eggs "hidden" in the bare branches of the trees, amidst the wild tangle of viny forsythia that is flowering despite the lingering snow. Open doors and people on the front porch and people in the house: open windows nevermind the chill, and a blazing fire and warm bodies against which one can jostle and be jostled. The most amazing spread of largely pot-luck dishes in the warm white kitchen, on the island and counters, and an array of beverage options, alcoholic and otherwise. From grapefruit-rosemary-vodka martinis to peach sangria to spiked lavender lemonade to a deeply wicked spicy bloody mary.

The back yard: more people, tramping through the mud. Fire in the firepit, all kinds of smoke in the air. Sera out there, too. In muddy Doc Marten's and a frothy black confection of a floral Dolce-and-Gabbana frock by way of an Easter dress.

William

Sometimes, you have to wear a suit to things and get an uber.

He got the uber namely because he knew he wasn't going to be driving home and riding a motorcycle when it was cold was kind of shitty. Jenn had moved out, so he didn't have free access to her car anymore. She's a Big Deal now. Lives in Los Angeles and sells paintings and is the personal assistant to a fairly well regarded Euthanatos. It was a good move.

But still: no car. He'd spent the money he was going to use for a car (because his parents told him to get a goddamned car) on a bed that was nothing short of a masterpiece that was very beautiful and ethereal and was very conspicuous when one decided to fuck like they going away to war the next day and this may be the only opportunity they have to make their way to the English literature majors at DU.

He's gotten a lot of compliments about that bed. It's sturdy, but not quiet. Not loud, but certainly not quiet.

He hadn't gotten a new phone number, instead ported the old one and continued to maintain two phones because he couldn't bring himself to tell his parents that he probably was never coming back to Louisiana. Set up call forwarding to one cell phone and bang, no worries there. He's been a busy one, William. His instagram account and FourSquare put him across the United States for good chunks of February and January. One occasional stint in Antarctica, but that was GPS spoofing. He took some picture with a girl wearing the kind of headphones that serious gamers wear sitting in an apartment with vertical blinds and a half-shaded view of a pretty city skyline.

William came with deviled eggs and cupcakes. And a bottle of vodka that was neither top shelf nor bottom shelf- distinctly in-the-middle shelf.

And peeps.

He's outside and off to the firepit, with his nice pants and button down vest and an eskew tie and a shirt that looks like he actually pressed it. He's still wearing about half a dozen bracelets on one wrist (some red and woven with gold, some navy, some leather with metal. They actually have purposes thank you very much) but the necklace that was tied on too tight has finally fallen off, and the little sun charm has yet to be added to the pile.

"Have I told anyone recently how fucking fantastic this place smells all the time?"

Serafíne

Sera does not instagram or four-square or facebook so she doesn't know where William has been or has pretended to be unless he has texted her and told her, and even then she might not remember. She does text though, and take loads of selfies and know many, many, people, and something about the way she collects things and sometimes people is very much like a physical tumblr but whatever. She hardly knows how to use those things. She understands texting and selfies but often has trouble remembering how to work her iPhone. That is 50% substance related and 50% she doesn't give a fuck about technology related.

She prefers: people.

And Will encounters some people he knows in the house: Dan or Dee maybe in the kitchen to accept deviled eggs and peeps and vodka and Emily Honey Bunches of Chokes and her wife (what! yes: they eloped) Jenny and, you know, others. People from up the street or down the street or around the corner or around the world. Sera opens her arms and greets Will with a great big rising-to-her-tip-toes hug. Her nose finds his ear.

"That's because you haven't been here when you needed to hold my hair up while I puked my guts out. Doesn't smell fantastic then.

"Want a marshmallow?"

William

Emily got married?! ("Whaaaat? Do you guys need a toaster? Registry or something- I wanna get you plates-" and general congratulatory excitements) And then it's out to the outdoors, where Sera stands on her toes and he beams like sunlight and feels like he always dopes- like the storm and the sailors on the ships tossed on it. Hands go around her waist and he does come down to make the height difference a little more bearable. Seven inches-ish. Maybe six on a bad day and eight on a good day.

Pulls back and laughs, "I feel like that is the next level of our friendship. I think you're usually the one doing the hair holding."

Possibly. William has puked at her house all of twice, once early on when one could hardly notice because he's so damned quiet about the whole thing. Rinses his mouth out with something high proof and goes about his night like this is normal. It was a big party, you don't want to miss it.

"I would love a marshmallow," he tells her, "I brought peeps, but those aren't regular marshmallows. Peeps are Peeps."

Serafíne

Well: well well well.

Will says that Peeps aren't marshmallows, Peeps are Peeps, but when Sera said marshmallow, Sera meant Peep. Will wasn't the only one to bring Peeps to this party. Sera and Co have a neat little set of fondue forks that Sera and Emily found for $2.99 at a thrift store because the fondue pot was cracked or broken or thrown-away or sold-separately and the handles are kinda long and they are keeping them staged on a little wrought-iron table near the firepit so anyone who wants can make a Peeps-flavored-Smores (or graham sandwich, or whatever) while getting high.

Sera picks out a bright-blue-bunny Peep and skewers it mercilessly and hands it back to Will, triumphal. Tucks her right arm through his left and rises up again to her tip-toes to kiss him all chaste on the cheek, even as she gathers her skirt up so it: doesn't catch on fire.

"Haven't seen you in forever. Glad you came. And that you're alright. Anyone fill you in on what's been going on?"



William

Poor Peep. Poor, poor Peep. He looks on with mock-mourning as she stabs the poor little blue bunny mercilessly. "Sera, you animal!" he says in his most southern, most high pitched and most assuredly damsel-tied-to-the-railroad-tracks voice.

And immediately the peep goes into the fire without a second thought. Just at the edge, like he's trying to coax some confession out of the peep and he's a Grand Inquisitor wanting to yell repent! Repeeeeent! As though the peep was very clearly consorting with the devil or an enemy of the Great Peep Church.

"Grace told me what was going on," he says, "the Denver chapter of the pointie hat society had a meeting beforehand and I went oh, okay, we need to go make friends with people... which turned out not too bad, actually, but I came back and shit hit the fan. Grace was pretty peeved that I wasn't here

"But I heard that Alexander's physically fine from her a few days after she'd told me."

Serafíne

Will screeches that Sera is. an. animal! and in that voice and of course everyone in the yard turns to look. The two strangers sitting the wrong-way in the rainbow hammock smoking a bowl and the hippie-girl barefoot in the mud making giant bubbles and the trio of professors from the neighborhood (adjuncts, the lot of them) standing as close to the house as possible because 52 degrees is pretty damn warm after a blizzard and pretty damn chilly any other time smoking some allegedly Cuban cigars.

Sera laughs; she is: plainly, uncontrovertably happy in that moment. Were she more forward-thinking she would be getting a graham cracker ready for him, but no. He will have to navigate blue molten bunny-goo very much on his own.

--

Neat little frown when he talks about the pointy hat society. She doesn't get it? Doesn't know what he's alluding to? Doesn't know to connect it to an early morning visit from Pen or anything else that came after.

But - "I don't - " another neat frown. This quick little pause as her eyes dart out over her friends, the smoke rising, rising, golden head cocked just then as if she were listening to something. "I don't try to speak for Grace, but I don't think she'd be mad at you for not being here? That sounds kinda like a misunderstanding?"

William

He's got a head on him, but doesn't think to get a marshmallow, either. Soon enough it's molten and gooey and he does what everyone does when they have a bloated delicious marshmallow cooked to perfection but in immediate danger- he turns it until he can grab a graham cracker and slop the peep onto it.

Laughs along with her. Happy to be where he is.

---

She says it was probably a misunderstanding.

"It was? I mean, I made it a point for us to get together later because we've had this weird dynamic going on for awhile, and I get why she was angry- she had some pretty big shit blow up in her face and she had a lot of pressure on her," he continues on, "when she came over and we talked she was super tense and was basically ready for me to write her off."

He purses his lips. Takes a bite of marshmallow and cracker and takes a second to chew so he can figure out what he's going to say. Decides not to say anything.

Serafíne

Sera has her golden head down as she listens. She must be freezing in that dress, which is basically a spring-themed negligee over black lingerie. She was wearing a crown earlier; had it planted high among her curls, but this is the sort of party where everyone can have everything and friends and strangers and everyone (or well: not everyone but some everyones) wanted to touch it, feel it, marvel at it, try it on and Sera, very very strangely, found that today of all days: that was something she didn't want to share.

The loose imprints of the earlier hairstyle are there now. Strange little kinks, unnaturally angled curls to match the natural mass of them. That listening aspect she sometimes wears, and feels: so very intimate, and so very animal.

"And were you?" Quiet, neatly probing. "Writing her off?"

William

"No," he tells her, says all nice and quiet, "she's been on my ass when I mess up, but she doesn't mean to come off abbrasive and I haven't figured out how to read her yet."

A second, "she's said some pretty shitty things before, but I don't think she ever means to hurt people. Grace is just very... with me or against me."

"No, I wouldn't write her off."

Serafíne

Sera is still tucked up against Will. That one neat arm. They haven't seen each other much in recent months. Just the once much earlier this winter. Before that: it was November. The week before Thanksgiving. The day she came home after a long, terrifying, ridiculously lonely walkabout. She was: so very thin then. She'd been fasting off and on all summer, and then Thailand, and then: that exile, and it's not likely she remembers with any regularity to eat even when her friends and lovers are around to sometimes see that she does.

She's gained back much of what she lost, though, and she looks just as lovely now - replete - as she looked when she was harrowed and hollowed. More perhaps. Especially in that see-through dress with its tumble of appliques and the exquisite French lingerie she has paired with it, beneath.

"Tell me the last time Grace was 'on your ass,'" slanting, banked little look, shaded by her lashes. "for messing up."

William

"Back when that stuff happened with the weird body shifting Nephandus? The first time Sam went into Quiet?" he is quiet about it, doesn't broadcast because, for all people knew, he could just be throwing things around in some foreign language. She's tucked in all nice and close and things are warm. He remembers when she was so thin, remembers when she felt and looked like she was wasting away not because of a lack of food but because of a lack of nourishment- a time away from the people who fed her soul.

"Anyway, I'd asked Jenn to do those paintings so people would know what we were looking for and when shit hit the fan with that there was a standard dressing down. Before that I got a talking to about wanting to investigate the whole weird monster in the park that tried to eat us thing and the subsequent investigation and the pretty continuous drop it, it's over when we found out later that it definitely wasn't over."

He stops. Exhales. Looks guilty for a minute before offering her some marshmallow peep goodness.

Serafíne

So, here's another thing Sera doesn't really know about. To-wit: the weird body-shifting Nephandus? No one has ever told her that story. Tied the pieces together for her. She has these fragments of it but again: no means of connecting them to the whole, outside of dreams or visions and thank god she doesn't have too many dreams or visions like that.

But she does: remember the certainty that something had been taken-care-of and other pieces of that. She also: hears something in Will's language and intonation that has her no longer looking down, but: at-the-fire.

And she is: careful. Careful.

"Remember the last time we talked?"

This - liminal - pause.

The hitch of her smile. If he glances at her from the right angle at just that moment, he can see that there is something about her today that is - oh - aching. Well beneath the surface.

"You blamed yourself for an awful lot of things that weren't really your fault. Remember?"

William

There are so many questions he would like to ask her sometime, but is certain he wouldn't get an answer. Not a verbal one, because Sera isn't words she is actions and those actions are Words in and of themselves. Doesn't need to say much because she says enough already to people who have eyes and hearts and know how to listen and really grasp what she said.

"I'm probably filtering our interactions through that," he says, ike it's a conceit, like he realizes something and doesn't quite know how to acknowledge it. She's looking at the fire, and he looks back at it for just a moment. The fruits of the tree of life are flames.

"Yeah, I remember."

Serafíne

Neat little nod of her head. Like she's agreeing with the music of the spheres, the notes of the universe, the rhythm of a joint being passed around a fire. Smiles a little, too. This banked glance she gives him, slanting neat and up to graze his profile.

He gets it. What she's trying to say to him. Which: pleases her.

"That's what I was thinking. Maybe you guys should talk again sometime? You know: without your filter. Grace, man. She's got enough filters of her own."

Said with a wholly affectionate curve of her mouth.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

wonders. wants.


Hawksley

The plan was to get to Denver far earlier. Even with a chartered jet, though, a sudden and overpowering blizzard will put a cramp in anyone's plans for the day. By the time Hawksley and Collins and their snow-chain-wearing Uber Black get to the house, nearly a foot and a half of snow has fallen, it is dark, and what little melted on the roads in the hour or so before sunset is already freezing into slick ice.

He is in a foul mood. Circling in that goddamn jet, sitting in that goddamn jet, eating everything that was on that goddamn jet. Collins has been snapped at more than a few times, even when he wisely had their driver stop somewhere to pick up takeout so they could eat upon arrival at the house. Nevermind that plenty of people had their flights cancelled or turned back to their orginating locations. Or that if they were stuck, they were stuck with hundreds of other passengers, crammed in and unable to move. Nevermind that if they were hungry, they had peanuts. Or no drivers, even if they got to Denver successfully.

It isn't that Hawksley is unaware that other people suffer more greatly than he does. It isn't that he lacks all compassion entirely. It's that right now, he is hungry. He is tired. He is impatient, and angry, and other people's shitty lives are not his fucking problem.

The driver pulls up right to the door for them. It is paid from Collins's expense account, not that of D. Livingston. They keep his name off of many things. Most of his belongings will be coming later, driving cross-country, but the driver and Collins and Hawksley grab a few suitcases and bags from the back of the SUV. The driver is given a trip for this, and then he departs. Collins opens the front door with his keys and holds it for Hawksley, who tromps in, neglecting to stomp snow from his boots. He is dressed in a warm woolen coat and a heavy scarf, and his hair is untouched by snow since it stopped falling before he was even allowed to land.

It is dark inside, but not cold; when Hawksley lived here they had Nest installed. They turned it on from the airport and it is a comfortable seventy inside already. Hawksley breathes in deeply, scanning the house with those piercing eyes of his. Drops one suitcase in the entryway, then a messenger bag atop that, taking off leather gloves. Collins, behind him, turns on a light, flooding the foyer. Much of the furniture was left behind, covered with drop-cloths. Linens were stored in cedar-lined closets and so forth. Things like dishes and cookware were put away but left here. More expensive art and sculpture, silver, crystal -- these were all put in storage. Books and anything magical in nature, anything Hawksley would use, was brought with them to New England.

And Sera had keys, and was told she could come and go as she pleased. If anything had happened here he needed to know, he'd know.

"Let's eat," Hawksley says, after settling himself back in this place, reaching up to shed his coat. Collins has already hung his own up, and dutifully trades Hawksley a bag of takeout -- Thai -- for his coat, to hang that up as well. Hawksley opens the bag and peers in, sniffing, looking for the styrofoam package marked Pad Thai - 5.

Serafíne

Awareness?

Dice: 7 d10 TN5 (7, 7, 8, 8, 8, 8, 9) ( success x 7 ) [Doubling Tens]

Hawksley

[*throws up hands*]

Serafíne

All of this is a little bit hallucinatory. Collins takes Hawksley's coat and Collins turns on the lights and there is the foyer, quite as it was left and Collins has the pad thai and Hawksley is settling himself back into the space. The shrouded furniture, the deeper shadows beyond the front hall. The swimming gray light that seeps in through the curtains, which are still mostly drawn. This house is old enough and huge enough that there is sometimes noise even when it is otherwise empty - something somewhere settling, or rattling - and now there is a storm outside, and they full of noise themselves. Stomping the snow from boots, peeling off layers, shaking off the irritation of the many, many, affronts and delays of the day so there is no reason, no reason at all for either Hawksley or Collins to hear the soft slap of bare feet on parquet floors, but -

- there she is. Sera: one hand on the frame of the archway that leads deeper into the grand public spaces of the mansion. Her hair is loose, her eyes a little too dark and remarkably wide and her mouth is seamed and she has a puzzled, fraught little expression incised with especial neat-ness between her straight blond brows.

She is looking at them as if they are very strange things indeed. Or: no.

Fuck that. She isn't looking at them at all.

All she sees is him but she sees him as she saw him once, some years ago, outlined against the sky, surrounded by strangers, and she doesn't really understand whether he's an hallucination or a real thing in front of her because drugs and dreams and absence: you know?

So she just stares.

And kinda forgets to breathe.

Hawksley

You'd think he'd check to see if they were alone. You'd think maybe with things in the world like Technocrats and Nephandi and so forth that he'd be constantly aware, paranoid, have everything on fucking lockdown all the fucking time like so many other mages who like to talk about The War, the sorts of mages who fling themselves dramatically into oncoming danger To Protect The Ones They Love on, like, a weekly basis.

Hawksley has never. Likely will never. Hawksley doesn't seem to be afraid of anything, and yes, to a fault. It is not his only flaw, but it is perhaps his least immediately annoying one.

So: he doesn't know that Sera is here when Collins floods the foyer with light. Maybe she came here before the blizzard began or just after it ended, before the sun set. Maybe she's been here all this time and noticed when the heat kicked on, activated by some far-away app on some far-away phone. (He has the Galaxy 7 now, because that is the newest, and Collins always gets him the newest and transfers all his contacts and apps and everything so that Hawksley barely notices he has a new phone. This is how it's been for years.)

But: he does know that Sera is here now when he lowers the plastic bag in his hands, rustling as he takes out the styrofoam with the Pad Thai in it, hands the bag back to Collins. Collins also has Pad Thai, but it is not a level 5 spicy. It is, despite the man's rather European features and tastes, actually far hotter than Hawksley's serving. And Hawksley just knows the motherfucker is still going to add hot sauce to it like he always fucking does.

He is looking up, and Sera is standing there, and his reaction is to wrinkle his brow a bit, eyebrows tugging together. He's still wearing that big scarf wrapped -- draped -- around his neck and shoulders, even though his coat was hung up. He hasn't even bothered taking off his boots. He didn't even kick the snow off, because he doesn't think to do these things. These tidy, respectful things.

Hawksley glances over at Collins, who is also looking at Sera now. Confirming that Collins also sees her, Hawksley turns his head back, blinking once. That little wrinkle remains between his eyebrows. And she stares. And he watches her, and after maybe four or five protracted seconds of silence he lifts his eyebrows instead, looks at her like um, hello? and says, like a goddamn asshole:

"You just gonna stand there?"

Serafíne

He says, you just gonna stand there, like a goddamned asshole and it is that: his voice and maybe the squeak of the styrofoam that cause her to blink. Once, really: and she closes her eyes on Horus and she opens her eyes on Hawksley.

"Fuck you." Ragged breath out, the edge of a laugh, maybe it's a laugh, maybe it's something else. The quick slash of her smile. Hard to know how to take it but she's already in motion then. In motion? She's running, actually, and she's quicker than you'd think a girl like that could be.

Hawksley may or may not be able to read the body language: but that is a headlong run. The creature is clearly about to hug the fuck outta him: styrofoam container of pad thai or no.

Hawksley

Fuck you she says and he grins, smirks really, and then, um

she's coming over. Running, actually. Which surprises him, somewhat. She runs, barefoot, and he has about a second to pass his Pad Thai to Collins, who caught Sera's running before Hawksley did and is ready to take it. So this is how it goes: Hawksley has dinner, then Hawksley has nothing, and then Hawksley has Sera. Make whatever metaphors of this that you want to. He catches her -- of course he fucking catches her, he's not one hundred percent asshole after all.

He is hugged. He is hugging, tightly.

For a while.

They stop hugging at some point. Collins has exited the foyer with dinner; on cat's feet he left them be and is somewhere else, plating the Pad Thai and saving some for Sera too in case she wants it. Hawksley is setting Sera on her feet again, but not quite letting her go as quickly. Takes a look at her. Thinks of pushing her hair out of her face but does not.

"You living here?" he asks, curious.

Serafíne

Sera hugs him for just as long as she can, contained and sharp and she still has that warm-sleep-smell about her and something else, some combination of smoke and Darjeeling and whiskey and sandalwood or maybe patchouli that is: Sera in the wintertime. Snow a bit: because it is snowing. Because she might adore winter but unlike sungods she usually likes winter just fine too. The magick of it, you know? The descending hush, the stillness, the snow angels. Well: she smells of all of those things and also of magick which he may or may not smell. Can't help it.

She loves magick, too.

--

So: she hugs him and they stop hugging and it is silly. He is has given away his coat but he is scarf and she is much, much closer to bare and now she is on her bare feet again, look how the world has returned to her. He thinks about pushing her hair out of her face. It's grown or something? He can't really see the side-fringe, mostly because she's parting it on the other side, so that the bulk of the curls fall to the right not the left.

Is she living here?

"Nah." She tells him, and if he has not let her go, she does break away here. Returns herself to her/self quite the way he returned the world to her when he put her back down on her feet. Doesn't go far though and she's also watching him; watching his face, attentively, searchingly. "Came - sometime last night? Dan said something about the weather but I said fuck the weather." And she's about to go on and say something else, but there's a moment of arrest.

Then: a neat shake of her head, this return of lilting inquiry, and an embedded awareness, concern.

"Hawksley. Is everything okay? What are you doing here?"

Hawksley

Does he smell her, when he hugs her?

He has never not done so. Hawksley has enough care and refinement and defense mechanisms to do so subtly, inhaling deeply rather than sniffing at her like a dog, but that doesn't change what he is at his core. Of everyone, Sera has always sensed that core, understood it clearly from the start. This does not make him special; she is like that with everyone. She cannot help what she knows, and what she understands. What she loves. Even if she could, he doubts that she would stop herself.

Under coat and scarf there is a black cashmere sweater -- charcoal, really -- and a faint hint of a blue shirt beneath that. His jeans are dark and his boots waterproof. Snow is melting off his feet and the puddle extends to her toes. His arm is around her waist. He has not broken that contact.

"Fuck the weather," he agrees, though more adamantly, more angrily, because he just spent far too much time locked in a flying machine that he couldn't get out of.

His eyebrows flick upward again as she asks. He thinks a moment, frowns, and nods. "Everything's okay," he confirms, and his arm slips away from her waist, but only so that his hand can come to rest on the small of her back. "Come on. I'm starving. I'll explain."

Serafíne

Sera is still Coming Down from something, though she is far enough away from the acute effects that only traces of the drug linger in her system. The very last threads of last night's high. Strangely firing synapses; bright little bursts of movement, awareness, sensation, a kind of strange ache in the very back of her head, and these fragmentary hallucinations at the periphery of her senses which dovetail very precisely with her revelatory awareness of him. Of the space around him and the shadows between and last time she saw him and the deep, abiding hush of the world after a storm. Of his hand on her spine.

Her eyes are on his profile as he first considers, and then answers, her question. And he is so radiant and alien and human and present in her layered vision and she is so attentive, and he's okay, and he's starving, and says "Okay," but something about the moment has her leaning forward to plant a kiss at approximately the midpoint of his collarbone before she turns to walk with him deeper into the house.

Sera reaches for Hawksley's hand as they walk. Her left, his right, if he'll give it. And if he does, then she will have the persistent sense that she is someone is grasping both of her hands and pulling her quite insistently up into the sky. She's quiet as they walk, though she does tell him that Dan's here, which he must have assumed. How else does Sera get anywhere? It's Dan or Uber or her own two feet because she knows herself quite well enough and also knows that she doesn't want to murder anyone by driving-while-Sera.

Hawksley

So familiar is he with Sera being on something -- a drug, a bottle of whiskey, an orgasm -- that he has always found her occasional sobriety to be unsettling and unnatural, skin-crawlingly so, as though someone else's opinions have taken over her limbs and made her parrot out bullshit about discipline or blah-blah-blah. This, these coming-down moments, are far more comfortable.

They are moving. She is pausing, and kissing his collarbone. Or rather: the layered fabric above his collarbone. All the same, he takes a breath at the contact,

and then they move on. Their hands fall together and she's the one who reached for him but in his memory it will be simply that their hands fell and found each other and connected like magnets. She says Dan is here, and he wasn't really thinking about Sera came to be here but sure, it's nice to know. He doesn't ask about Dan. He has no idea that Dan is angry. It is debatable whether Hawksley would give a fuck about the opinion a Sleeper has of him, even if that Sleeper is a Consort, a friend, what-have-you. He doesn't really comment on Dan being here, at all.

In the kitchen, the Pad Thai has been unwrapped and plated. Collins is nowhere to be seen, but there are two plates, and a bottle of white wine poured into two glasses already, and a single light above the stove is turned on, the room still dim but for the moonlight bouncing off freshly-fallen snow and into the windows.

Hawksley unwinds his scarf and tosses it across a barstool, pulling up another one and sitting down. He digs in immediately, and only after he has slaked the immediate pangs of his hunger does he finally get into what is going on.

Which is to say, he says:

"So. I'm moving back. The truck is on its way with everything else."

Serafíne

Sera perches on another one of the barstools. Legs dangling in way that is very much her own; that edge of abandon, which can be read as childlike, or something entirely else. Only lets go of his hand because he needs to take off that scarf and eat and kitchen! means that they've arrived, and she takes in the perfectly present absence of Collins with a brief but thoughtful wonder that would never enter Hawksley's mind in the first place, let alone occupy it along with the wonder of the moonlight and the surreality of Hawksley's sudden appearance in the midst of a blizzard, after so long an absence.

Hawksley eats. Sera... doesn't really, but hey there's wine and that sounds like a very civilized way to handle an acid hangover. She watches the moonlight on snow and the light grazing through the white wine and she watches Hawksley eat with such unabashed tenderness that it hurts when she thinks about it.

So, she doesn't. Think about it.

He tells her that he's moving back. She's quiet, but by now her eyes are fixed on him.

A beat. And then, "Is that a good thing?"

(He said: everything's okay, and she believes him. But - )

Serafíne

Per + Empathy

Dice: 7 d10 TN5 (4, 5, 5, 6, 7, 7, 9) ( success x 6 ) [Doubling Tens]

Hawksley

He eats like a man in his twenties, and drinks like it, too. Pours himself more wine and refills her glass when he does so. Eats the milder Pad Thai because he cannot handle the gut-immolating shit that Collins eats. She asks if that's a good think and he blinks, eyebrows drawing together, looking over at her.

Hawksley

Perception + Empathy

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10) ( success x 4 )

Hawksley

[Hawksley is hungry, and thirsty, and tired from traveling and still annoyed by the blizzard and its effects on his traveling. He's not unhappy to see Sera, but he wasn't really expecting this right off the bat. He's wary that she's going to pry and sort of (unfairly) gearing up to be irritated with her if she seems to be going that direction. He wants to just be here, and be with her, and not Get Into Anything.]

Serafíne

[It is strange to see Sera so oddly: restrained, but she is balanced on a strange fulcrum: she is so very happy to see him. Some part of her is ridiculously happy that he is back. Another part of her is quite: wary. But it feels strange and selfish to her to be that happy when she knows some of the circumstances that sent him away, and nothing of their resolution. So, she's asking him again: if this is good for him, and if he's okay.]

Hawksley

He looks at her for a moment like that, half-frowning, and then it smooths. His features ease. He nods. "Yes," Hawksley says, and firmly. He lays down his fork.

"My mother is... fine," he tells her. It's a hard word to say about a woman who has lost her mind, lost son, husband, everything. What he means is to reassure Sera that his mother has not died, she has not banished him. "The fuckhead's lawyers finally settled, and she's going to be very well taken care of. But... I'm no real help to her," he adds, more quietly. "Now that all that is over and done with, this is where I want to be."

Serafíne

Sera listens, and she watches him, and that strange and tender carefulness implicit. Closes her eyes near the end and nods.

"I missed you." Like, duh. He probably figured that out when she flung herself across the entrance hall at him, nevermind her bare feet and the melting snow on the marbled floors, the bite of chill in the air. "Missed seeing your head buried in some boring old-ass book, too. When's the truck supposed to show up with your library?"

Hawksley

His nostrils flare slightly as he breathes in. Exhales more slowly. "Soon," is all he says of the stupid truck. Watches her for a bit, and then he sighs, and smiles. "I am so tired," he confesses. "My eyes are burning."

Serafíne

"Finish your dinner." she tells him. There is another quick skim of her mouth over the mouth of her wineglass. She drinks the wine as quickly as he pours it. Of course she does. Not quite a smile, but - " - then come to bed."

Hawksley

"So bossy," he chastises her, teasingly, as though a moment a go he wasn't just whining about needing to sleep. He kicks her barstool, lightly, with the toe of his boot. "'Come to bed', she says, in my own goddamn house."

Serafíne

"About your own goddamned bed, too." Sera rolls her eyes; quite neatly. The world around her spins, just so and she rather likes that though she does close her eyes to bring her back to herself. Opens them again and he's still there, in the flesh with a mouth full of pad thai.

Sera pours out the rest of the wine. Empties the bottle into his glass and her own. If it isn't enough to make him tipsy, too, half-a-bottle is at least enough to ensure a decent night's sleep after the long day of traveling and travel-delays he has had. She tells him that she's just thinking about his own health and welfare: if he falls off the barstool from exhaustion, he'll sleep on the kitchen floor. She'd never be able to drag his muscle-y self up the stars. And she does say: stars, then corrects herself stairs. While he eats, she tells him that she's having an Easter party, and well: of course. It'll start some time and maybe it'll end. She has new dress! that is black and see-through and looks like a flower-shoppe exploded and she wanted the party to be in the garden, but: Denver, and: winter.

Dan will come down at some point. He's not just hiding away, and anyway, he wants gatorade or tea or food or whatever. Wants to tell Sera that he texted Tre and asked him to go check on the roof and make sure the tarps are holding. Sera doesn't really know what Dan is talking about but she smiles at him. Dan says hey man, or something like it, to Hawksley, while he gets a drink or forages. He's not really all that happy about the strange series of events tonight, but he doesn't make a show of it. Maybe a glance from Sera to Hawksley and back again but when a Sleeper - an aware Sleeper -
is in the room with them: where else would he look?

---

After dinner: bed. Sleep. Well, sleep for Hawksley. Sera has only just woken from a long, fitful, dreaming-LSD-in-her-system nap and curls up to cuddle, and be close to him, and drift for a while.

And wonder, the whole time, whether any of this is real.

She doesn't trust her head. And her heart: wants what it wants.

Which is very good reason not to trust it, too.


Hawksley

Hawksley does finish his dinner. He doesn't drink a half-bottle, just two glasses, because otherwise he'll wake in the middle of the night, fitful and dry and with a pounding head. He is listening while she talks, though he is eating through it. Stars and stairs. Easter party. New dress. He does chime in: "It will be warm. It's Denver," which is the same argument but for a different point: tomorrow they will wake to a blazing sun, a warm breeze, melting the blizzard away with shocking speed.

When Dan comes down Hawksley does glance at him, and doesn't know (or care) what Dan is talking about. He gives Dan a nod, but otherwise ignores him. His house has over a dozen rooms; he doesn't ask where Dan is sleeping. He doesn't ask where Sera is sleeping; he just assumes she has a made-up bed somewhere, and he'll sleep there, regardless of whether it is the master suite or not.

--

They go upstairs. Hawksley undresses and washes up, water on his face and toothpaste in his mouth. He doesn't usually bother with pajamas but he does tonight, a loose pair of pajama pants that are a nod to the weather, or something. He hits the bed hard, looking at the ceiling, exhaling. Neither of them have questioned whether she will be in bed with him; both of them assumed he would go to bed, to whatever bed she is occupying, and perhaps he'll pretend in his mind that it's because that's the one with sheets on it but a call to Collins and he could fix that.

Doesn't.

His arm to one side pillows her head. His eyes, watching the ceiling fall closed. His breath soon steadies. He sleeps; she drifts. Wonders.

Wants.