Santa Fe was full of things. Art galleries, tattoo parlors, and restaurants. There were people there looking at art and gathering at food trucks and this was the sort of place that people wanted to be. Tucked into some tiny strip mall, between a gallery and a boutique, was a tiny shop that was unreasonably warm called Van Gogh to Go- which was funny, in and of itself because Van Gogh wasn't exactly a person who did pottery, but there it was.
A little hole in the wall shop that let people build and glaze and fire their own pottery. They even offered glasses, but the building was cursed. Nobody really understood it, this happened to be a good location but everything that went in this particular building seemed to die within a matter of months. No matter what the concept. On Saturdays, there was the offering of shots and pre-fired ceramics.
They weren't teddy bears or unicorns (unicorns are hard), but they did have quite a few bowls and the occasional lopsided coffee mug that was fifty percent off if you wanted to do something with it. They didn't trust people to fire their own work on a cheap booze night, but the staff at Van Gogh to Go, a little round woman with freckles and curls and a tall, gaunt fellow who smiled often and had crooked teeth but a sensuous voice, were more than happy to oblige their patrons.
The back smelled a little like pot. Back where the kilns were and the walls were bright and garish and swirling like it was starry night except it wasn't all starry night. It was... more aboriginal than Van Gogh. The name just sounded better with Van Gogh.
Elijah wasn't sure what he was doing with his Saturday night, but it somehow involved pottery. There he was, sitting on some crappy park-style bench against a wall holding an uneven cracked half of a bowl.
"Depending on the glaze?" the little round woman told him, "some of the detail work you're doing could get lost? So... uh... be aware."
"Mmmmn-hmmn," he replied.
He wasn't paying attention. He had shots of tequila lined up nice and neat and dead.
SerafíneAwareness!
Dice: 7 d10 TN5 (4, 5, 5, 6, 6, 7, 7) ( success x 6 )
SerafíneThe front door to Van Gogh to Go swings open and another blast of chill swamps the little storefront. Barely below freezing but after the balmy weather this week past the cold seems sharper and brighter and harder-edged, and has had absolutely no impact on the clothes our heroine has chosen to wear tonight for a pub-crawl briefly interrupted by a side-trip to a paint your own pottery store.
Tonight Sera's wearing a tight little leather skirt that barely covers her ass, thigh-high fishnets in a diamond weave texture, an old Siouxsie and the Banshees tee - white, washed so often the cotten is beginning to erode - over a black bra, beneath a battered leather jacket, shearling lined. Perhaps in deference to either the weather or the pub-crawl she's in her shit-kicker boots tonight so, you know. Not tall the way she often seems.
There's a little bell on the door and it rings to announce the arrival of anew customer and the little round woman looks up and, perhaps surprisingly, blinks her recognition of the new arrival.
Sera doesn't seem to notice anyone except Elijah. Makes a little beeline over to him and swings a leg over the flat bench - just one, straddles it nevermind that her skirt basically allows her no room to move her legs if she wants to maintain anything like decorum (she gives no fucks about decorum). Rests her chin on Elijah's shoulder.
"What the fuck are you painting?"
ElijahWhat was he painting?
Precisely, or more accurately, what the fuck was he painting?
Elijah looked at the broken piece of pottery, cocked his head tot he side and tried to think about what was there. Really give it a name and a word because that was, in and of itself, a powerful thing. Giving something a name, imbuing it with properties by saying I dub thee a bowl, but frankly, he wasn't sure just yet. It reads across in his hesitation, the way that his mouth opens and then closes and then quirks to one side.
"Polka dots," he decides, "and little chevron things."
Chevron thingies.
He shrugs with his free shoulder, and leans a little against the woman at his side, "fuck if I know what the plan is, they keep bringing me booze so I keep painting."
Serafíne"You don't have to know, you know," the creature murmurs, low beside his ear. She has a bony little chin and he has a bony little shoulder and he leans against her and she's naturally, thoughtlessly affectionate with him in a way that never precisely seems sexual. There's alcohol on her breath from the martini bar across the street and a martini bar doesn't seem precisely like her sort of scene but that doesn't stop her, wouldn't stop her.
And she's behind him, kind of, giving him space to paint and to not-get-paint on her favorite Siouxsie Sioux t-shirt. "You could just say fuck if I know. Who the fuck cares about having a goddamned plan. Slash the shit out of the underbrush and go whereever the fuck it takes you, yeah?"
Lifts her chin then. Places a delicate kiss behind the structure of his shoulder, over his jacket, tee, vest, whatever it is the tall blond boy is wearing.
The little round woman hovers. She's not quite fretting yet, but - she does want to interrupt and ask if Sera will be painting this evening.
And then there're the things she never picked up. The little round woman would like to ask her if she'd like those things, too.
Elijah"Once we fire it?" he says, starts, "doesn't matter if I had a plan or didn't have a plan. The glaze is gonna do whatever the fuck it wants to do- hors de mes mains."
It's not sexual. He could be a number of things, and most assuredly was a creature who enjoyed sex, engaged in it, and generally did any number of things but his affections towards Sera weren't ever lustful. Weren't focused on her legs and how they were long (even though she wasn't tall, he didn't understand that, but understood that her legs were long and she was not and that made perfect sense to him) and that her features were striking and that she had any number of wonderful textures at any given time and he knew that if he could, he'd do whatever he was capable of for her.
But they are there, and she presses her lips to the fabric of his vest and the fabric rustles against his shirt underneath it.
"Wanna paint the other half? I was thinking about doing both and then, like, gluing them together or something."
Serafíne"Hours of what?" Sometimes French and Spanish are just close enough that Sera understands one or two of the words sliding out of Elijah's mouth when he decides to respond to her in French. One or two. She breathes in and and smiles against his vest and this smile shows teeth - that he can feel - then kinda shrugs and lifts her left leg over the bench to join her right on the other side and close as they are her bony knee catches Elijah a bit in the spine but she's careful too, nimble if not precisely graceful, and she murmurs a little apologia and pats his back comfortingly.
"I'll paint the other side but I don't know that you need to glue the pieces together, after. Nothing wrong with being broken - is there? You don't have to put everything back together, you know? Sometimes that's just how things are."
mouse[awareness]
Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (2, 4, 7, 9, 10) ( success x 3 )
mouseEven the most stoic of people must allow themselves some moment to breathe, even if it meant showing a side of themselves they'd rather not. This isn't to say that the 'letting one's hair down' sort of thing meant that the stoic was no stoic, but simply, that there were moments when being guarded was simply exhausting.
Arionna was no stoic, but the concept still held. She hadn't known they were there, and had simply ventured out in an effort to give herself some time to just...zone out, or give her own mind a rest. Studying had a way of tiring her out, despite the fact that she enjoyed it immensely. Since she had plans to work on art, or some manner of activity that would be messy, she hadn't bothered to dress as extravagant as she was want to do. No, she chose a simple peasant skirt. Green, with some sort of cultural pattern on it in gold. And a T-shirt with some manner of faded skull pattern on the front. Even her hair was pulled back into a long braid, then wrapped up on her head to keep it out of her face. Of course none of this was seen except for the moment she slipped in and took off her coat.
But it took a moment simply to do that. Her hand had paused on the door, the familiar feel of Sera and Elijah so very close to her. They felt too close, close enough that she wondered whether they were going to be exactly where she had planned to be. And then she questioned whether she ought to leave.
She stood there for far too long, the cold air of the city mingling with her own icy feeling. Her lips tightened, untouched by the usual colors of lipstick, and with a deep breath, she gave him and plunged right into the potential interaction of all three.
Arionna stepped in. She stepped in, removed her coat and took a seat at a free table for the moment.
Elijah"Hors de mes mains, out of my hands," he clarifies.
He nods, listens to what she's saying and holds the piece a little gingerly at the sides. He's overworked one half, had been explicitly told that if he wasn't careful he could accidentally over-glaze the piece and it would end up stuck to the insides of the kiln. Elijah was not a child that had been trusted with things that were breakable. He now now also an adult that is not trusted with breakable things.
"I think that..." he stops, has to reorder, "I think it's a lot harder to be broken. I mean, if you break you just become something different. "
mouse[LMAO helps if I change names]
Arionna[*cough* no one saw that]
ArionnaEven the most stoic of people must allow themselves some moment to breathe, even if it meant showing a side of themselves they'd rather not. This isn't to say that the 'letting one's hair down' sort of thing meant that the stoic was no stoic, but simply, that there were moments when being guarded was simply exhausting.
Arionna was no stoic, but the concept still held. She hadn't known they were there, and had simply ventured out in an effort to give herself some time to just...zone out, or give her own mind a rest. Studying had a way of tiring her out, despite the fact that she enjoyed it immensely. Since she had plans to work on art, or some manner of activity that would be messy, she hadn't bothered to dress as extravagant as she was want to do. No, she chose a simple peasant skirt. Green, with some sort of cultural pattern on it in gold. And a T-shirt with some manner of faded skull pattern on the front. Even her hair was pulled back into a long braid, then wrapped up on her head to keep it out of her face. Of course none of this was seen except for the moment she slipped in and took off her coat.
But it took a moment simply to do that. Her hand had paused on the door, the familiar feel of Sera and Elijah so very close to her. They felt too close, close enough that she wondered whether they were going to be exactly where she had planned to be. And then she questioned whether she ought to leave.
She stood there for far too long, the cold air of the city mingling with her own icy feeling. Her lips tightened, untouched by the usual colors of lipstick, and with a deep breath, she gave him and plunged right into the potential interaction of all three.
Arionna stepped in. She stepped in, removed her coat and took a seat at a free table for the moment.
Serafíne"That's pretty fuckin' wise," agrees Sera, with the equanimity of an inveterate stoner. Even nods her lovely golden head a little. She still has the side cut but has allowed the soft fringe of the buzz cut to grow out a bit so that is resembles instead the pincurled fur of a cocker spaniel whose coat has been closely trimmed to spare it the heat of the summer.
Okay so instead of sitting properly on the bench she chooses instead to sit criss-cross applesauce like a guru hovering a few feet above the ground. The big bulk of her boots awkward beneath her knees. "But I think there are a helluva lot of things that're broken. People that're broken. Or maybe they're becoming but they forgot the goddamned process. Got sidetracked. Got their asses hurt all over again.
"Anyway. You should glue it together again after I paint it, if you want. Is there teal?"
And Sera glances up somewhere in the midst of all this. She could feel Arionna's resonance from blocks away. This shiver cascading down her spine, close and closer until the door opens and the girl herself is there, hesitating in the open door, blasting winter into the otherwise warm little space while she makes a decision about whether to stay or to go.
Dark blue eyes touch neatly, lightly on the young woman, then swing back to Elijah as she takes up a brush.
"Your little friend's here. I don't think she approves of me." Murmured quietly, privately, with this supple thread of a smile. "I'm not sure she approves of anyone. Were you guys supposed to meet?"
Elijah"That would suck," he proclaims, "being in the process of building yourself back up but forgetting to get to that part so you're just... like... fuckin' person pieces."
He reached across the table, stretched, stretched, stretched for something that he was pretty sure was teal- it looked teal, and he grasped it awkwardly with his left hand. Looked up in time to see Arionna and he smiled, bright and all sunshine, because he was sunshine, doesn't realize that his proximity to Sera might be considered odd. Doesn't realize that his proximity to a lot of people may seem odd. Only that he wants to be close, so he is. And that was that.
"Nah, this wasn't planned," he said, "it's more serendipity?"
And he handed over the teal, waved the little quarter-glazed piece at Arionna, since waving the other hand didn't seem to dawn on him. "Are you gonna come paint with us?"
ArionnaShe set her coat neatly on the bench she was at, lightly pulling on the bottom of her shirt, as if it had pulled up where it shouldn't have, even though it didn't. Ari was even ready to make a decision on exactly the sort of thing she wanted to do, and without hopefully giving into the people not far from her. She wasn't a stalker after all, and yet being in another place that they were just seemed rather odd, even to her.
But Elijah was already inviting her over, waving some piece of pottery at her, and he certainly didn't look in the best of shape; alcohol had that effect didn't it? Her brows furrowed a little as she looked from Elijah to Sera, an obvious dilemma occurring. With a small sigh she removed herself and her coat from the chosen table, and stepped over to them, taking a place with the most distance from her and Serafine; maybe because she didn't like her, or maybe because she simply preferred her space. "You seem rather cheerful."
SerafíneThe Cultist doesn't comment on what forgetting might do to people. Strangers, anyone. She does give Elijah this look, which is both banked and lashed and contained, absolutely lovely against her profile. Then she glances down at the table on which they are painting. This slant-wise view that feels stolen, all the discrete implements necessary to the work in just one place, wrapped in shadow and stolen light.
And she breathes. Imagines herself with two great wings framing her spine. They're folded and damp. They're new. Sometimes they ache.
In that moment she goes a bit far away.
She's pulled back when Elijah declares that this wasn't planned and is closer to serendipity. That's when she wakes. Takes the teal from Elijah's hand and squirts some onto the paper plate that serves as their amateur palette, holding the brush briefly, neatly, between her sharp little teeth, then plucks it out and dips the tip into the glaze even as she reaches - with her other hand, the left, wrist bristling with leather bracelets, spiked and studded - for one of Elijah's shots of cheap tequila. Knocks that back like a professional.
Sera was going to tell Elijah that she has that word - serendipity tattooed somewhere on her skin. But Arionna decides to join them instead and the Cultist chooses to seam her mouth and swallow those words, glancing between Elijah and Arionna with lifted, lilting brows. Clearly that comment was for Elijah, not her. She'll let him respond.
Elijah"I prefer not to be morose if I can help it," he tells Arionna, still has that bright smile on his face, because why not? Why not smile and why not be in a good mood. Tipsy though hewas, his words were precise and measured, like language held a purpose and would be executed with the same on-a-dime precision that it deserved.
"Have you met my friend Sera?"
ArionnaThat he prefers to be cheerful...
But Arionna isn't sure he can be anything but it. Elijah always seems to be the sort of person who is like that. Always happy in some way. She normally finds such people to be rather annoying. How -can- a person be happy all the time?
She looks to Sera slowly. "Yes." Simple answers are preferred. There's no need to elaborate about the tacos, and the meeting with her and Kiara. There isn't much that would come out of it. She rises, steps away long enough to get a plate like item and sits back down to begin her own crafted item. It wasn't going to be lovely either, Arionna hadn't an artistic bone inside of her.
SerafíneWhen Elijah asks if Arionna has met my friend Sera, my friend Sera sets down her shot glass, tequila burning the back of her throat, and flashes Arionna a peace sign with her left hand. The gesture is enough to expose the strange tattoo that takes up much of her left hand. Scissor blades evident on her index and middle fingers, which come together into the handles on the meat of her palm. One of the loops then slowly turns into a shark whose tale curls all the way down the tender skin of her inner wrist.
"We've met," Sera echoes / confirms, her crawling mouth tucked into a little smile. Her instinctive, unremitting compassion at war with her regular desire to make those with comfortable, well-settled opinions a little less comfortable, a little more un-settled. "Kung Fu Tacos was out in Lodo a few nights ago," unlike Arionna, Sera does elaborate. "Though fuck me, I don't think I ever actually ate my goddamned tacos. One of them was smoked duck with kim chi. Kiara was there and I got fucking side-tracked."
Then a glance back at Arionna. "You know, pottery painting doesn't seem quite like your bag. What brings you out here?"
ElijahYes, Arionna says, and he might be a little tipsy but something washes over him and he is suddenly made aware that things seem... awkward. Not completely awkward. Not Carrie levels of awkward, just... awkward.
Tequila is picked up and offered to Arionna. If she doesn't partake he drinks it and puts the glass down, upside down, on the table.
"I think Kiara just does that, not that she means to but it's, like, attention getting."
ArionnaShe declines, visibly, by pushing the shot glass back to him. "I drove." Because while she's perfectly happy bending and breaking modern society's rules, the outcome of such bad decisions would be far greater in cost than they are worth.
"I wonder what it is you think is... my bag... exactly." She reached for a color, pulling it to herself and setting up her small space to begin painting.
"She means to." Arionna decided to add into it. "Her demeanor suggests that she desires attention, seeks it out, requires it. "
SerafíneSerafíne is perfectly happy to claim the shot that Arionna turns down. Does so without a second thought, long fingers - tattoos framing them - reaching for the rim of the shot glass over the bristle of brushes and paint pots on the newspaper-lined plastic table.
Such a strange place. Such a strange conversation. Such a lovely burn at the back of her throat. "I never fucking drive," to both, as she tosses back the shot Arionna refuses for pretty solid reasons. "There's a reason fucking god invented cabs, far as I can tell."
And Arionna wonders what Sera thinks is her bag, exactly, and Sera kinda shrugs her narrow shoulders in a gesture that looks like surrender and doesn't really respond directly because it wasn't really a question directed at her and more to the point she doesn't really know.
But - "Kiara didn't distract me from my taco. I had this chocolate I was drinking and then I had to pee and there was a bar and I forgot about them until like four a.m. and I was telling Dee that I'd found Kung Fu Taco and she was so fucking jealous and she asked what I had and I was like.
"Fuck. I left my tacos."
Daub daub daub. Dot dot dot. Teal polka dots are being plopped almost-neatly onto the white ceramic broken thingy.
Sera's dark eyes flash up, across the table at Arionna, so far away, who adds that Kiara means to, desires attention, seeks it out, requires it.
Quietly, then, still daubing, "You sound like you don't approve."
Elijah"That's cool," he declares. He should probably drink something else at some point. He tasted a little like tequila but he always did. Some people drive, and some people do not.
Sera proclaims she never fucking drives.
"Ah, and on the twelfth day the lord did look down upon the people and said, ugh, my people have to drive places and it doth verily fuck up their reverie, and he did bestow upon the earth the yellow cab taxi service, and it was good. But so as not to abuse the lord's gift, he made it smell like stale cheetos and White Shoulders, and it was good."
He grins, and stops his polka dotting for a moment, "I kinda like having attention. I'll admit it, totally not ashamed."
Arionna"I wasn't aware that stating the obvious was the same as disapproval. If you want to know what I think, then you should just ask." Sera did daubing, Elijah made polka dots, Arionna began by slowly making a line around the outer edge of the plate. She worked slowly, trying her best to be as careful as any real artist might; maybe because she knew how bad she was at it.
"You're just as obvious, Elijah." Arionna hunched a bit more over her plate as they spoke. Normally she'd have her nose stuffed in a book; anything to keep her thoughts rolling. People could be boring,
"Why cheetos?"
Serafíne"Sounds like you have us all pegged," Sera murmurs, and her paintbrush hovers but doesn't move much and mostly she watches Arionna over the edge of her own piece. Dark eyes lashed, remarkably sharp for all that the alcohol she has imbided tonight is surely stealing some of her focus right from beneath her feet. It isn't an admission: it is something else, though Arionna is unlikely to discern the sense of whatever it may be.
"What brought you to Colorado?"
ElijahWhy cheetos?
"The lord works in mysterious ways," he says with conviction, but can't get the grin off his face long enough to take himself seriously.
Though, admittedly, he does pause, he does think about it, and he does put his piece down. It would have been easier to bury his head in the sand. To busy his hands and not say anything but... he doesn't.
"Hey, Arionna?"
There is hesitation.
"I know you probably don't intend for it to come off that way, but sometimes you say things about people and it comes across as kind of... I dunno... angry. And I get you can be angry but, like, Kiara's my friend, ya know?"
ArionnaShe hears them both. What they say, the tone that comes from Elijah, and the subtle warning that she gleans. She's insulted his friend and he isn't very fond of it, that's what she gathers. Her brush stroke slows, and she lifts her brush from the plate.
"My mother was committed. I was under age." It feels uncomfortable to say to anyone other than Danny, who she's come to be close to. Her lips pursed and she blew softly on the paint to be certain it was dry.
"Her disposition is her disposition. It won't change depending upon the friends she has. If you wish to keep truths from her to spare her person, then it's a choice that you make. I choose not to. " Her gaze lifted slowly and she looked at Sera and then the tipsy Elijah. "I assume that it's not favorable for you."
SerafíneSera cuts Elijah a glance as he speaks up to say that Kiara is his friend. And she has had more than a few shots herself, but still there is something aware in that look, quietly simmering, and then the glance banks and lowers to her piece. She isn't really painting now. Her brush is still and there's her shadow over the table the stillness of the room around them. The little round woman hovering but not precisely close.
Some three months ago Sera and some friends ended up here on a whim and Sera was stoned - tripping - and she painted a plate threaded to look like a mummy pink and orange and black. Hasn't been back to pick it up and the mummy has been sitting in the pile of to-be-claimed pieces for months. She doesn't really remember it.
"How old are you now?"
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That's quiet, too.
Elijah[manip+sub: because talking about this is totally normal for me!]
Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (1, 2, 3, 4, 4, 6, 10) ( success x 2 )
SerafínePerception + AWareness as Empathy: Eijah.
Dice: 7 d10 TN5 (5, 6, 6, 7, 7, 8, 9) ( success x 7 )
Arionna[ditto on Sera's]
Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (3, 4, 7, 9, 10) ( success x 3 )
Elijah"Hospitals are hit and miss," he tells her, "sometimes the food's okay but you lose time. I didn't know any lifetime residents, that's pretty rare from what I understand. I'm sorry that happened, though."
And that'swhere the genuine quality of it was. He did feel sorry, not in a pitying way but in a way that he really did understand. Being committed was a familial affair. It didn't just impact one person, it impacted the whole family. He understood tha this was hard, wanted to be present and give some insight, give something that was mitigating, but at the end of the day, he couldn't.
Bless him, though, for trying.
ElijahIt's more then that, though. It's more than just trying to show empathy, it's that realization that the minute he opened his mouth he shouldn't have said anything. Shouldn't have done anything, wants to abandont he topic wants to flee. Sera catches the little things. The fact that his eyes- a little glassy- focus on a wall for a moment like he was expecting something to happen. She could tell when his stomach tensed, the way that he froze up, that beyond that the experience he had owned up to was more of a miss than a hit.
Or maybe it was a hit when he was praying for a miss.
Maybe there is a touch of recognition, of relief. There but for the grace of god goes he, but it's always lurking in the back of his mind. That he may lose touch. That he may go back, that he might do worse than-
Well now, that's a story for another time, isn't it? Off in a flicker of a memory that tries to set fire to panic but is stomped out too quickly in the name of being rpesent for a friend.
Arionnaskip me for now
SerafíneSo. Arionna doesn't really answer Sera's question. And it was a question: directed at her, quiet, compassionate in its way.
Then her dark eyes flicker to Elijah. There's a beat of her always failing heart, and then that always failing heart skips, and then her attention is entirely on the young man, not the young woman. "My folks put me in rehab for the first time when I was twelve."
And she's slurring her words so you kinda understand why that fucking happened. How her teenaged years got devoured.
"When I was eighteen I stole a bunch of meds, checked myself out, and sold the drugs to buy a ticket to London."
ElijahTwelve.
What had he been doing when he was twelve? He didn't know half the things he did now were even in existence when he was twelve. He wasn't even interested in girls when he was twelve, wasn't fascinated with holding hands or making out or anything remotely familiar in that sense until he was thirteen. Was thoroughly off in his won little world at twelve. Was just an imaginative child at twelve. One that didn't grow up quite fast enough.
He nudged Sera a little, eyes stay with hers for a moment. Does the quick math and knows she's at least six years off from that last visit.
"London's got to be a lot better," he admits, though it's not an admission for him. He's never been to London. "Do you have any good memories of being a teenager at least?"
SerafíneElijah considers the age and considers the source and does quick math: what he knows of her. How far removed she is from whatever when down, then. And he tells her that London's got to be a lot better than rehab and she gives him this simmering look, because yes it isholy fuck, other shit and she's a bit too tipsy to do anything else. To be anything else.
And he wants to know if she has any good memories of being a teenager at least and she gives him this near little shrug "'Course." Which is both truth and lie and shoots a banked glance at Arionna, whose one-line admission started this line of commentary and questioning.
And Sera puts her brush down and rises from her seat and grabs her little clutch and goes to pay, both for today's pieces and for the pieces she did months ago, before she went to London, before -
Gives Arionna and Elijah a little privacy.
For the nonce, at least.
(OOC: sorry was trying to wait for arionna but I am so tired. going to bed! night!)